So I've been sick for 2 days now and I had to take a day off work today. I know Khee didn't like the fact that I took a day off because it's Monday and there's only Nancy & I, and Nancy also had to take Suemin for Mini Vardering. I felt bad for not being there but I really couldn't. I couldn't even speak let alone consulting with a client, which is the most important part of the haircut.
I've been really stressed and overwhelmed hence this sickness. I havent been sick in so long, I can't remember the last time I was sick. But here I am, I'm still positive and I love God. I thank Him for all the wonderful people He had placed in my life. I'm so grateful for all the friends I have who prayed for me. They're absolutely amazing.
Last night I finally managed to book my ticket to Milan, and it was very expensive, almost $2700. If I went a day earlier or that Saturday morning/afternoon, it could've been so much cheaper. Like at least $500 - $700 cheaper. But I don't think I can even if I ask because I've already taken 15 working days off annual leave. Sometimes, I have thoughts of resigning and then just go away for like 3 months or something, and then come back signing a new contract. However, I felt bad because I know Angie and Dennis will not be happy with it especially when they had so much hope in me. And for me to leave the company after a few months of working there would not leave a good impression and it's not very respectful.
This afternoon I spent 2 and a half hour waiting at the doctor and I even forgot to get the doctor certificate after leaving so I had to come back and wait again. It took way too long. I went to Officeworks afterwards to get my art tools and they were extremely expensive as well. I mean things like scale ruler, artline pens & tracing papers were too pricey. But it's okay, it's for what I love and I need it anyway. They might even ask me to purchase those when I get to Milan, so might as well get it here now right.
I've been spending so much money but I needed to. I spend where I have to and need to. I'm not stinggy and not tight. I spend where it's necessary and is always willing to give. I thank God for everything I have because without Him I would not have anything right now. Nothing at all. In a way, I'm glad that I don't make much money because I'm learning to use it very wisely. I know how to afford a lot with very little. The ticket that I've just purchased would be equivalent to 5 weeks of my pay. I don't get pay much but Jesus knows how to use what you have so little of, to make a significant change and impact in this world. Not only for yourself, but more importantly the eternal impact on this world and the people who lives in this world.
So after today's appointment with my doctor, there are some points that I've taken away:
1. To take ONE day at a time. Do one thing at a time and forget about any other things that needs to be done. Put all of my effort and energy in competing the task at hand.
2. If I can't sleep, don't stress over the fact that I can't sleep. Get up and do something that I like: reading, watching TV, exercise, move around ect...
3. Make sure my bed is as peaceful and relaxing as possible. I need rest and I should not occupy anything on the bed that may distract me (I've done that tonight: cleaning my bed so half of my bed is not in junk ahhaha)
4. Turn my phone on silent when I decide to sleep. Prioritize what I need most which is rest rather than communication & internet.
5, Don't stress over the fat that I can't get my assignment done. I over worry things too much and the worst thing that can happen is that I will finish a little later. It's not how fast I do it but how effective and well I did it. It's the end that counts. At the end of the day I know I will finish. I should just relax and trust God in helping me and giving me enough time to get things done.
I have work tomorrow. I was suppose to have it off because it's one of my RDO but Nancy wanted to swap so yeah it's okay. I hope I can talk tomorrow.
My throat is really killing me.... there is some complication with this ...person (guy) as well... but we'll see what happens.....
Apart from that... God is good to me, I've been watching a lot of youtube videos of TD Jakes and God really spoke to me through him. I'm really glad. I love Jesus..
