Daniel fast - Day 5/31 - You'll fight for me

Oh Lord, when will this rest. Lord Jesus, you are our fighter, please fight for me in this battle. I feel like I need to be stronger to resist, but it's not by my power but by yours. So you would you make me whole, cleanse me, let me be still and you fight for me (Ex14:14)

Lord, I feel like my spirit is so drowned. I feel empty and frustrated. I want an end to this. Maybe God is cleansing me without me even knowing it.

"It is far easier to love God than it is to love others, but God sees them as the same"

Daniel fast - Day 4/31 - The hope that is in me

I'm on a fast and I don't even feel like I'm on a fast. Not because I don't get hungry, but I just don't feel like eating, and I'm not having any craving. Thank God. I hope it stays like this. I just crave for God's word and it's like the word feeds me. 

Today I prayed that God will provide me financially, give me resources for afterparty, and for our team to hear his plan and purpose. 

Then God spoke to me about worrying in Matthew 6: 26

"Look at the birds of the air, 

they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, 

and yet our heavenly Father feeds them. 

Are you not much more valuable than they?

And about struggles

He allows certain things to happen so we can turn to him

And about FORGIVENESS

Forgiveness is a decision, NOT a feeling

And about PURPOSE

"always be ready to give a defense to everyone who asks you to give a reason 

for the hope that is in you" 

1 Peter 3:15

• He gives me strength and peace when there's no hope. Eg, Family problems & failures.
• He blesses my family through prayer and heals people of diseases and sickness.
• I find my life's purpose: To be light in the dark/ To use my gifts and talents to help others/ To do whatever I can to point people to Jesus, our Father who gives us a plan, purpose & a future/ He shows me that it is not by talent that I succeed but only by his mighty power.

Daniel fast - Day 3/31 - I am a friend of God

I woke up today thinking about my friends. And how they are going through rough time spiritually. I know it for sure. It saddens me that some are more distant than before. I feel a little lonely but I shouldn't be because knowing God is enough. He gives me peace and I wouldn't have it any other way. Since yesterday, finding out that Andrei isn't able to do the BBQ this coming weekend, I was very surprised with my reaction. I was calm, and I was hopeful that God will provide. I kept on telling myself that whatever God promised he will bring to pass, and also if it's a part of God's will and some people are not doing it, then he will get someone else who's willing to do. Either way, it will still be done. I know this season is dry but I know God is sustaining me. I know he'll bring me people.

There is a big difference between being out of God's will and being pruned or tested by God. Both are uncomfortable, but in one, you will have peace, no matter how uncomfortable it gets. In the other, you won't. 

God is the light and in him is no darkness at all. 

If we say that we have fellowship with Him, 

and walk in darkness, 

we lie and do not practice the truth. 

But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, 

we have fellowship with one another, 

and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin. 

1 John 1:5-7

"So don't worry about seeing or understanding what the future holds. God wants you to trust Him as He leads you, even though you can't see clearly ahead. And don't be overly concerned about fully comprehending the past. Only He knows the whole truth about it anyway. You have him now. He is your light. And that is all that matters."

Be anxious for nothing,

but in everything by prayer and supplication,

with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;

and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, 

will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Philippians 4:6-7

I guess that's how I'm feeling now. Even though I'm tired and there are a lot going around me, but I have so much peace. 

Question: Why do I have the hope within me. Why can't I live without the Holy Spirit?

Daniel fast - Day 2/31 - Let God reign my mind

You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you

Isaiah 26:3

You have a choice about what you will accept into your mind and what you won't.

Lord, I ask that you take captive of those ungodly thoughts. Please lead me in your way and fill me with thoughts which are pure. Let my mind think of You, think of your words at all times. Let me not be discouraged about the future but trust in you for you will deliver me. Comfort me when I feel down Lord. Teach  me about time management. Let me be your light, and let me not be ashamed to stand up for my belief and who I am. Let today be another day that you reveal more of yourself to me. In Jesus name I pray.

Daniel fast - Day 1/31 - Steven's prayer

My first day of the Daniel fast.

Consume only fruits, vegetables, grain and water.

Today went well, I ate mostly fruits during the day then had rice and vegetables for dinner.

Steven was hurt today from a NYE fight and I prayed for him. Found out that he actually goes to scripture. I asked if he believes in God , he said that he will get there soon. I'm happy. I thank God that my day was purposeful today because I was brave enough to pull him out and talked to him and prayed for him.

I also started on the one year bible reading plan. God is slowly revealing a lot of things to me.

Today, for the 5th time, God reminded me of the verse

"Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added to you" Mathew 6:33 from the book "The power of a praying life"


God's way do not make sense. If it's logical, it's probably not God. 

My vision for 2013

So today is the first day of 2013. 2012 is gone and 2013 will be a year where my faith is tested. I know that for sure, now that I have no job.

Christmas was depressing even though I was on a cruise. It was fun, however I felt very lost and confused about life.

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• The year I see is a year full of God's favour and blessing demonstrated through different circumstances and people are able to recognise the Lord's goodness.
• I see year where my character is refined to become more like Jesus, so pure and reflective that people sees Jesus in me wherever I go, and are inspired to know and follow him. 
• I see a year where the connect group flourishes with such health and large attendance that there is no room to contain us. That there are leaders rising up to lead sub connect groups. People are being multiplied and they call their connect group home. A connect group built up with God-loving and dedicated individuals seeking to make a difference in God's kingdom. And whose connect group members are continuously being flourished through serving and receiving at church. 
• I see a year that speaks of powerhouse as a mighty force in his church, where salvations are being saved at an exponential growth. I see a year full of excitement in the life of our afterparty, that people are drawn to it because of the culture that it sets. That lives are being connected and reconnected with Jesus through this community and his people. I see afterparty going to a whole new level with attendance so large that we fill the big Hillsong bus constantly each week. Where we have people who are equipped with resources to provide our needs. 
• I see a year with team unity, with many gifted and talented individuals joining together to make powerhouse Saturday 7pm the best service for 18-25 years old. I see a team of such Jesus lovers that they're willing to do whatever it takes to make each week's event happen. I see a team that is united and serve with excellence. I see a team rising above all odds when challenges come, and unite in prayer and worship to wait upon God's faithfulness. 
• I see 2013 as a year where God raise me up to lead leaders who are leading other leaders. The year that God teaches me new and wise things.
• I see different sub team under me, each working cohesively within their own team and their leaders are performing better than I am. I see the next generation of leadership going greater things than I have to bring glory to Jesus.
• I see 2013 as a year of completion to long lost hope, a new cycle for my health and the year where God restores my identity. I see this year as a year that I learn to love and be confident with myself and look better physically than I ever have. A year where eating healthily and exercising will no longer becoming a chore but a loving habit and a joy to take care of God's temple.
• 2013 will be a year where God reveals to me more of Jordan, where God would teach me to place Jesus first and fall deeply in love with him before anyone else. Then Jordan will be introduced in reality. 
• I see a year where I adopt a new language, and submerge myself in their culture and find a new love for speaking a new tongue.
• I see a year of incredible spiritual growth that God would take me to places I would have never dreamt of. I see a year where my first hour of the day is dedicated to him, and the first fruit of everything I earn goes to him. I see a year where my honour to God allows God to bless my career in a way that blows my mind. A year where the more I place God first, the less hour I have to work and the more I get paid. A year where so many collaborations are done to produce great work of art with talented individuals. I see a year where Jesus shines wherever I go.
• I see a year where my family are drawn towards Christ and who he is, and a year of hope and discovery of Truth for all my family. I see a year of provision where they know it comes from no other but Jesus.
• I see 2013 as a year where my temptations and weaknesses no longer have control over me, rather Jesus and the Word of God strengthens my foundation and empowers me to keep doing righteous things.
• I see 2013 as a year where my knowledge of God would be broadened, a year where my eyes will see his glory and my ears will hear him clearly. And my heart will be led to do only good things.