My father doesn't care about me, but God does.

Although I don't need to know the reasons for everything but I really do wonder why these things have to happen. I know they all happen together for the good with those who love Him. I know that they all happen for God's Kingdom and glory but why?

Is God trying to show me the Dad that He is? And is He trying to show me that Jesus is the ultimate God after all? That all our biological fathers are carriers not the creators? That I was born through my parents not from them? That God made us all by His glorious power?

For whatever that reasons may be. I do not want to waste my time and ask if God doesn't want me to know just yet. All I have to say is, after everything, I finally know who my real father is. And it is He who resides in heaven, who made me and loved me even when I did not know Him. He loved the one who spit on him, who rebuked His name, who insulted him and despised his greatness and glory. I'm glad at least I have Jesus in the midst of all the troubles.

I don't need to turn to anyone but Jesus. He is all I need. I know how my dad is and how he will turn out like. All I ask is for him to ultimately realise the love my mum has for him and all that she has sacrificed during their relationship. I do not pray that curses will be upon him or that he should suffer for the rest of his life. I know for a fact that the rest of his life would be a very lonely one, which is so unfortunately. But you know what, I still care and love him because he is my father, he is my dad. And even if all this happen, I will never forget those loving moments we had together in previous years. I miss it so much when he laughs and be all cheery. I missed those days when my parents were happy together, and when we were all together lovingly enjoying the complete company of one another. But those days were gone, as everything has its timing.

God, but I honestly lost so much respect for him, after everything he has done. I feel so much pity for the man that mum once loved. I feel sorry for him because his mind is so limited. And I know what you would call him, you'd call him a "fool". There is no need to explain anything to such person, because they will not understand it even if you try. I don't know how my dad has reached this far. I don't understand how his character can change so much. I don't understand why.

I thought the things he said would hurt me more, but I felt like there was a wall of glass surrounding my heart blocking out everything negative that was said about me. It was like God was trying to let me know that what my dad said isn't reality. That the truth is my father in heaven cares about me and will never forsake me. I could not believe my dad was going to hit me. I honestly feel like HE CAN NEVER TOUCH ME by the BLOOD OF CHRIST! I dare him to! He can never touch me or lay his hands on me because the spirit is upon me and God protects me.  I could not believe it when he said that he never wanted to come to Australia. THEN WHY THE HELL DID HE SIGN ALL THE DOCUMENTS? Why does he have to blame mum for taking him here? Why does he even have to tell me to ask mum? He makes it seem like it costed him something so significant to get to where he is, or that he has to sacrifice something so great to come to Australia. Yeah, something sooo significant, namely his wild field of "freedom" called "Vietnam" where he is free to meet, greet, spend his money and live his life as a "SINGLE" man even though technically he is still married. I can't believe how mum can bare such pain for so long. How she can forgive him of ALL THOSE WRONGS dad did. I mean, THOSE ARE SO HUGE! Seriously, they've got to be a collection of the deepest sin wronged by a husband/man. Gambling, drinking, smoking, cheating, cursing, abuse: verbally and physically. And times that by a BILLION! How many people has he cheated with? Hrm, I don't even know. Like 5 - 6 or even way more. Who knows how many when he goes to the brothel. The worst part is, he cheated with my parent's friend! A person who I also call mum! A neighbour as well! What is wrong with this corrupted world. And what about all the money he has spent on gambling! probably thousands and thousands and thousands of dollars. I mean, just the previous week, he has spent more than 2 grands on WHO KNOWS WHAT. But I don't really care anymore. I can't wait till we move back to Belmore. I just want my mum to live healthily and happily enjoying life. I just want her to relax in the comfort of her own home, with nice garden ect. I really feel sorry for dad. Like really really sorry for him. I don't even know how long he has left to live because of how much he smokes. Easily 1 - 2 packets a day! And drinking? Forget it, he is the strongest drinker ever. He wanted everything, and he got it all. He wanted to divide the income and he got that. Now he still questions why and where and how such money went. Omg don't get me started. I really don't have a good feeling about his life after this. As in his old age. I picture him really lonely, spending money on people who doesn't even  care about him, but gives him temporary satisfaction. I can see people acting fake, being nice, manipulating him for money. And then at the end of his life, he will be left with nothing. Who will care for him then? Who? I mean WHO??????? Even though he hurt us, even though he disrespected us, but that doesn't mean that I don't love him. HE IS STILL MY DAD! AND I CARE FOR HIM. I just have to trust in the Lord that He will have his way for my dad. But for now, I just have to stay strong for my mum through this journey. It will take probably 2 months I think. I think so. To sell the shop, waiting period, paper work and all the rest, moving ect. I was just thinking today. I don't think I'm going to start looking for a hairdressing job until I've settled down probably. My family is all over the place at the moment and work is the least of my worries right now. I just want to settle in a new place first then do whatever I need to do later on. I really don't know how the rest of the year will turn out, but I trust in the Lord that whatever He has got for me will be the best. It is coming. I just have to trust him and be patient. Jesus I thank you that your angel was guiding me and your spirit was with me through my speech. My heart was racing as I began. But God, I'm not going to worried. I know for a fact that there are far more harder things ahead and I need to save my energy for that. I need to continueingly seek your words for wisdom and protection. Thank you Jesus.

Please please please help us sell the shop asap! Find someone who is willing to pay the right price. I just want to get out of here! I really want to! I want to start a new, fresh life! Protect me, mum and my little sis. And please I pray you will show dad how much mum really loved and cared for him. What ever he decides to do. Just help him learn from his lessons.

Satan, the Blood is against you.

GENESIS 4:1-14

WATCH PART 2 - 8

The blessing of the Lord is on the 2nd son.

IT IS ME!!

God is going to favour on the unexpected.

God has his hand on Mum!! On ME!!!!!!!

"That's me"

Abel = Jesus, Shepherd. Takes care of the sheep

It is the BLOOD that makes the difference!

Always come with thanksgiving and sacrifices.
ONCE YOU FIND OUT WHAT GOD LIKES, GIVE HIM WHAT HE WANTS

Faiths come by hearing, and hearing comes from the word of God!
"If you do what I told you to do, I will bless you"

He is not a respecter of people, He is the respecter of principle.

If it's working for you, you have to do what it is working for you!!!! (fasting, prayers, worshipping)

HE DIED SO I CAN RISE AGAIN!

JESUS DIED!

Curse turned into BLESSINGS!!!!!!

Blood that was shed for my sins

THE BLOOD WILL GIVE ME A VOICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111

YES YES YES YES YES YES!!

Psalm 23

Deepest prayer.

All I ask right now is provision and protection over my mum, my little sister and I. Jesus almighty God, may your will be done. May your Kingdom come. May all that belongs to you be safely protected against all evil plans. Lord, as you know my dad have actually started advertising to sell our shop without telling anyone about it. I'm upset that he does not have any respect for my mum or us kids because if he did he would've at least told us what he was going to do. Jesus but that's not the point, besides he already did it and thankfully it's also what my mum wants to do. What I really want to pray for is tonight's talk. I pray that by your Holy Spirit, i will find the right thing to say. I know when I'm upset I might say the wrong things or things that doesn't make sense. Have your words over me God and let me speak what you want me to speak. I'm not sure what I'm going to say but I'm not worried because I have an army of Godly soldiers behind me in the same prayer as they're making their way to the Snowy Mountain. Jesus Christ, even though my mum doesn't know you but I believe you already have your way over her life. I know you have always been protecting us even when we never notice. I ask that your blessing will come over our lives. I know our vase may look empty but your blessing will fill it all up in no time at all. The greater the need, the more great things you will do for us. I trust in you Jesus. I thank you for the great future you have ahead of us. I know things will never be better. I know amazing things will take place when these silly troubles will part their ways. God, greater you are. Greater is our God who loves us and care for us. Who have planned us even before He planned the earth. He knew each person by name before He even created the garden of Eden, before all mankind was to ever take place. Lord, the almighty amazing God, no one can ever compare to the vastness that you are. No minds can ever comprehend the wonder of this world, this earth, this universe with the majesty of Heaven where your Holy people are. No one can be my God except for you. No one will give me the love that you give. No one can replace your generosity, grace, power and love. No one, no one but you. Jesus have your way. I know for a fact that your hands will be upon me. No evil plan shall prosper as long as I have you with me. Your staff will protect me, your words will save me, your wisdom will give me success and your spirit will guide me with strength. Jesus, thank you.

Guide me Lord, guide me now that I seek your words.

Prepare me for this battle, but most of all, protect my mum for all that's to come. Revive her with strength. She is an amazing woman of God. She is absolutely amazing, my hero, my all and she needs you Jesus. Bring her home with me God.

Unsettled mind

If I don't do this, my mind is not settled!
I can't believe it's 4 am right now and I can't even go to sleep because there's so much on my mind and I need to get them down and FIGURED out before I forget or lose track of them.

Okay so, things that I need to do......

• Waiting for Interior Des Inst to reply to my email then SEE CENTRELINK to renew Youth/Newstart Allowance
• God help me to continue my Interior Designing. Help me to finish it !!! I have 6 modules to go
• Design hair for photoshoots (magpie, lyre bird, cockatoo, budgerigar)
• Take hairdressing workshops/classes
• THURSDAY *below*
• List down what kind of photographs I want in my portfolio
• Sort out how many I've already had and Book more upcoming shoots during this free period. 
• Print our photographs by end of July! Get Port ready!
• ONCE RECEIVE THE HAIR
• Practice hair extension on dolly head.

THURSDAY:

- Pay for extensions from Ebay

- EMAIL Cherriene and Xiaohan the reference hair pictures

- AFTER WORK: BEFORE ANYTHING: Finish reading Module 6

FRIDAY:

- Cancell ANZ Bank Account

- Withdraw money to pay mum for Hui. Withdraw $600 + $300 work money this week.

MONDAY:

- Maybe go to Toni & Guy and return the Hot rollers

Hairdressing Driven - Be fantastic TODAY!

Watch HERE!!

Salon Owner and Stylist Tips
Fabio Sementilli
P&G Salon Professional North America

• Talent
• Right attitude
• Integrity
• Caring for people
• Hard working

• Building up a clientèle one person at a time: always looking forward to that next appointment. Always plan for the next appointment. Suggest something different.
• Always make sure you're working in the right environment, that the salon suits you. Ask the owner: What is the career path?
• Follow the step of a successful stylist, but in your own way.
• LEARN THE NEW BUSINESS TREND.
• Being a mentor is about "Attitude".

I really feel like God is telling me to INVEST in what I love doing. Invest in my passion. Invest. Okay What should I do next? I need to practice more and more and enroll myself into workshops. Yes, that's right. Meanwhile, I can earn some extra cash by doing hair extensions for people around me. 

Let see what God has instore for me next. (:

Watch HERE! AMAZING

The Power of Teamwork
Anna Pacitto 
Pure Salon


Great VIDEO
A Conversation with Maurice Fiorio
Maurice Fiorio 
Fiorio Salons and Spas

You have to please everyone!
You have to adapt to everyone and wow every body
You have to be good at a communication

Follow the movement, not the trend
Understanding the client's needs

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Adding value to each of the visit
Are you opening up a salon to open a new business or a new job?
Location Location. It is very important!
Keep staff motivated to come to work: be inspired, education, communication, have staff meetings

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Be able to learn from everyone that you work with no matter what level they are at.
http://scissorboy.com/video/?episode=64
GREAT HAIR CUT
The Pixie Haircut
Michael Crispel from Earth Salon

Holy Spirit overtaking my heart

I feel a really strong sense of the Holy Spirit taking over my heart right now as I'm talking to Mai, my cousin. She has such a great purpose for her life, yet she is resistant to ask the Creator of all universe to reveal that purpose to her.

Omg, I'm working right now and I'm experiencing that spiritual pain that I usually have when God is really talking to me. I want to introduce her to Christ but I don't want to be forceful. It should be done out of her own willingness. All I can do is offer her a choice and she will have to make it. I can bring her to the water but I can't force her to drink. My heart, The Spirit. I feel it. It's so strong. It's really strong right now.

Jesus what is it that you want me to know God. What is it? Talk to me.




Linh, my child. Do not be worried about other people. It is good to be caring and genuinely concerned about the people I've created. It is not up to you to be forceful or push them  into such decision that should be done out of love. I want them to love me and to know that they need me. They will not turn to me until they know they are loosing things that holds a lot of meaning to them. They will not turn to me until they know they have a need that no one can satisfy. They will not turn to me during their happy days. All you can do now is prepare yourself for all those worldly opposition questions that may come up. Prepare yourself with that, because with the environment you live around right now, the only sure way of winning their heart is to prove to them that there is a God. You have to be ready to explain your idea, the FACTS! Trust in me and seek me then I will give you all the knowledge that you need. I will guide you with the spirit like it is within you right now. It will be Me who will be speaking through you, not you yourself talking to them. It will be my vocabulary. You will know if it is me or if it is you. You will know. You don't need to push. You don't need to be anxious. You just need to trust that God is working in everyone's lives and everyone is a work-in-progress. All you can really do is to introduce to them the idea of God and the idea of purpose and prayers. Nothing else but that. I will work the rest out.. Trust in me my child. Haven't you seen the great things I've been blessing you with your life right now?

The Vanishing Point

July 12, 2010Web Version

Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.

James 4:13-14

Good fishermen will leave out early in the morning, when it is dark, calm and quiet outside. Fishermen don’t sleep in and they don’t waste time hitting the snooze button. They make the most out of all the time that is available in their day. Their wake up call might come so early, in fact, that they could get a glimpse of a morning fog.

Just like that momentary fog on the water, our time here on earth is evaporating. Are you spending your life putting off the things God wants you to do, thinking that there’s plenty of time? Or are you seizing every moment and making good use of every minute?

In the verses above, James is telling us that time has no guarantees. He’s challenging us to focus on what we can do today.

What are some of the things you have been procrastinating? Who has God placed on your heart? Who are you supposed to reach out to? Don’t delay. Life is too short and too uncertain. So take every opportunity you can to find and fulfill your God-given purpose here on earth.

The Bible, seen from outer space

published in arts by seven on Jul 10 2009

The crossing of the red sea

A group of Australian artists called The Glue Society has recently displayed a project that will surely be controversial. The work consists of a set of digital pictures that try to represent a series of biblical episodes just as they would be seen through a satellite, such as with Google Earth. Above, we can Moses crossing the Red Sea. It's funny how these pictures are close to our own stereotypes...

The cucifixion

Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden (look closely)

Noah's Ark after the Deluge

The name of the collection “God’s Eye View” coincides with Isaiah 40:22
“He sits enthroned above the circle of the earth, and its people are like grasshoppers…”

Read more: http://obviousmag.org/en/archives/2009/07/the_bible_seen_from_outer_space.html#ixzz0tWYhmpX6

Don't reason, step out in faith and do it!

BRITT NICOLE - The Lost Get Found lyrics

Hello my friend
I remember when you were
So alive with your wide eyes
Then the light that you had in your heart was stolen
Now you say that it ain't worth stayin'
You wanna run but you're hesitatin'
I'm talkin' to me

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it
There's a girl on the streets, she's cryin'
There's a man whose faith is dyin'
Love is calling you

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

Why do we go with the flow
Why take an easier road?
Why are we playin' it safe?
Love came to show us the way
Love is a chance we should take
I'm movin' out of the gray

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
(Stand out)
Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
(Stand out)
'cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it 

SAFE


You keep tryin to get inside my head,
While I keep trying to lose the words you said
Can't you see i'm hangin by a thread,
To my life what I know, yeah i'm losing control and
Oh no, my walls are gonna break
So close, its more than I can take
I'm so tired of turning and running away
When love ju--st isn't safe
(your not safe, mmm-mm)

I'm strong enough, i've always told myself
I never want to need somebody else
But i've already fallen from that hill,
So i'm droppin that guard here's your chance at my heart and

Oh no, my walls are gonna break
So close, its more than I can take
I'm so tired of turning and running away
When love ju-st isn't

Midnight anointing from TD Jakes, my mentor

God Knows What's Hidden Inside of You (It's In The House 2)

You Have To Serve A Lil While (It's In The House 3)

This is so greatttt!!!!


"Most of my life I have been praying for situation to a God who moves in generations." - TD Jakes

Is Serving God Worth It? (It's In The House 4) 

Omg, this is amazing!!


Testimonies tell what is going right.
But what do you do when it's not going right???
You don't have to have more degrees than the thermometer to be anointed or chosen by God.
You can not receive what you can not conceive.

Sometimes We Get Used To Things In Our Houses (It's In The House 5)

What you have is extraordinary!
Don't get used to it and think it is ordinary. Accept the gift God has given you. WHAT IS IN YOUR HOUSE? God is using THAT which is left in your house to carry out His will.


Container + Content!


See the Value of the content! Don't be too occupied with the fragility of the container.
The more needs, the more resources.
The more troubles, the more blessings.


You need to ask God for BIG THINGS!


Praise Him for what He is about to do.

When The Vessel Is Empty, Shut The Door (It's In The House 6)

God is attracted to capacity.
The greater the capacity, the greater the flow.
The more you're HUNGRY, the more GOD GIVES!


Bottomless pot! As long there is a demand, supply will continue to flow.
You think you've been blessed. You think wrong. God has more.


Full folks don't want anything from God. Set them aside, go with the hungry people!


As long as there was emptiness, there was flow. As long as there was a demand, there was a supply.


There is a miracle in your house!!!!!
In order for the oil to flow, you have to respect the pot it comes from.
Even Jesus could not perform mighty works because the people treated Him as ordinary. His goodness can't be seen.
If you don't position the pot right, you won't be able to send out the blessings. You can't just let the pot sit up right and expect the oil to flow. You have to proper reposition yourself!!
God will always use something that you ALREADY have!


Oil comes from Olives. Olives have to be crushed to produce oils. The greater the crushing the greater the OIL!!!

If You Want To See A Real Flow Of the Holy Spirit (It's In The House 7)

It's all about the bruises, the pain, the crushing.
God has been using you all along. You haven't been through all of them for nothing. Your blessings are on its way.
God is keeping you here because you still have something to pour out.
The oil is flowing.
The spirit is broken. You paid the price.

Let God's Oil Flow (It's In The House 8) 

Praise & Worship God For The Oil (It's In The House 9)

Sell your oil. God will trade with you. He will give you what you didn't have. But you have so much left that you will be able to live off the rest.

My testimony: I am a seed

I became a Christian in Year 7, when a friend invited me to come to Hillsong Church Encounter Fest. It was a 3-day camp in October.

 "The Spirit fell upon me.." and I gave my life to Christ. I remember crying so much and people were so happy. They hugged me and were smiling. I didn't understand why but now I know. It was like God have found his lost child. The whole Heaven rejoices even if it's just ONE person coming to Christ.

I was so happy. I wanted to tell everyone about God. I wanted to let them know my decision of becoming a Christian and my happiness.

I couldn't go to church because I was still young and besides my family is Buddhist. They would not let me go even if I wanted to. 

During year 8 or 9, I started to go but I stopped because I was sick of making excuses to my parents. I'd always tell them that I was going to birthday parties. The Spirit convicted me and I had 2 choices: to lie and go to church OR not lie to my parents and not go to church. I decided to not go so I don't have to lie. God says in one of his commandments that we should always obey our parents so that's what I did. 

I made a promise to myself that once I finished high school I'd go to church regularly because I'd be mature enough to decide for myself what I should believe in.

So ever since then I've been going very often. I go every week and up until now, my parents still don't know that I'm a Christian. It's been almost 7 years since my commitment to Christ.

My life after becoming a Christian has been a growing journey. The growth was very minimal during primary and high school. It has only been GREAT since I started coming to church regularly which was from 2009. Meeting godly people and surrounding myself with lovely individuals who supported me through the good and bad have allowed my faith to grow so strong. Especially after last week's Hillsong  Conference, God had confirmed so much of His promises to me. 

With God, my life has changed SO MUCH. You may ask why?

Because when I was without God, I lived with no purpose. I live through each day as if it was ordinary. But now, with God, I know my life is purposeful, no matter how normal each day seems, I know it plays a crucial role in bringing about the future that God has planned for me. It allowed me to appreciate the most simple thing in life. I love taking the bus because I get to observe people who are God's extraordinary creations, I get to admire the beautiful trees, sun, sky, clouds. It makes me thankful for the city I'm living in, the freedom we have, the opportunity to do what ever we wishes. Even the flat concrete road is awesome because it makes the ride so much more smoother.

God has shown me His amazing love, and that's why I have learnt to love my mum just as much. To be honest, my family had not always been affectionate, especially when we're from an Asian background, emotions tend to stay hidden. I would not feel comfortable hugging my parents, let alone kissing them on the cheeks like western parents do to their kids. They never said I love you. They never said "Great job" or "You did so well" or "I'm so proud of you". I know they probably did feel it but it was always hidden. What's the point then? Nonetheless, God had placed people in my life to inspire me to love. The last relationship I was with, brought out both the best and the worst in me. God made me a better person through that. I was very inspired by the way my ex loved His mum through her sickness of cancer and the divorce she had. God made me realised that I have to be open to affection and it's okay to initiate and that I have to make the most out of what I have. Since then, my mum and I had been closer than ever. She is the person I love most after God. She has been through so much and I would literally die for her. I even want to get a tattoo saying "I love mum". She always call me and my little sister "angel" now. She'd hug us. We'd hug her EVEN in public which I was never able to do. But now I love her so much I didn't care and I like it when we're affectionate in public because I want them to see how much I love her. Even though she doesn't know Jesus like I do, but God gave me visions that she will come to Christ and she will make it to Heaven. I'm not worried anymore. I'm very happy.

Because of God, I have been able to receive opportunities that are seemingly impossible. He had planned my life so carefully and every step of the way makes sense. When I look back I can tell that the series of situations were only chains that brought me to the present place. Painful things He allowed to happen opened up doors to better things to come. The break up of my last relationship was the worst pain ever, but if that didn't happen I wouldn't have committed myself more to God. It was then that I decided to go church weekly. It was then that He have me the last warning to turn back to Him before I suffer in this chaotic world. I quit my university course, I started Interior Designing. I started going to the Gym. My whole outlook on "friends" changed and I realised how neglectful I was towards them and how supportive they are when all I need was to call and they'd be there. I socialised more and realised that what I thought wasn't true after all. I used to think he was my everything and there was no one like Him but I was wrong. I thought I could not live without him but I was also wrong as I am still alive typing this up now. He was in my life for a reason. He was right for a period of time, but that was it. I don't regret it because I know God used it to refine my character through all the mistakes I've made. 

I then started hairdressing. This was late last year. And who would've thought this would be the bridge to my calling. Just last week. Exactly a week ago, God gave me a vision such as the one in my blog showing me that He wanted me to be successful in this area so I can get in connections with people of authority whom He had also called according to His purpose. He told me how 1/4 of my time will be dedicated to hairdressing, the other 1/4 goes to mission work and the other 1/2 goes to preaching the Good News. And since then I've been getting constant confirmation from God that THIS IS WHAT HE WANTS ME TO DO. Repetition from Sermons, videos, Hillsong Conference, Bible verses that I read and what people tells me.

Ever since coming real close to Him. He made my path clearer and allowed me to use my gift instead of doing my own things to please others. I believe I'm a creative person and nursing wasn't right for me. I'm glad He had lead me to do Hairdressing.

Another thing that I'm also grateful for is how God had taught me a lesson of patience. I was struggling with that for so long and the person I love so dearly ended up being the victim of my bitterness. It was my little sister. I was a very bad sister. Even though I gave her what she wanted, buy her things, but my impatience had pushed me away from her and I lost her trust. But since drawing closer to Jesus, He had slowly changed my mindset. He used my mum to constantly talk to me about my attitude, in a VERY KIND and slow-to-anger way. He was so patient with his words and I know it was Him who spoke through my mum. I've had this problem with impatience for years, and it had caused many hasty decisions that I wished I can take back, but I won't because I now learnt my lesson. Jesus is so good to me. He is so faithful.

He had blessed me with my family's situation as well. Even now when things seems so broken, but He gives me the peace that NO ONE ELSE can give. I tend to be so emotional. I'd cry and cry and ask why this why that. But now, I trust Him fully. No matter how bad things go, I know He has a GREAT and AMAZING plan for my life. He is faithful and if He promised something, HE WILL carry it out. He will do and perform that which He had said. The feeling I have towards Him, towards life, towards people is so priceless. I've been through so much in my life, I was in the fire of anger and sorrow, but because of my outlook on life, I am now able to walk out of it without the burning smell, without the smell of smoke. I'm clean, I'm free. People who sees me or hears my past would never imagine that I went through such things. 

How can I not believe in Him after all that He has done for me? And how Jesus died for me when He didn't even have to. But He was able to take the punishment that was intended for us and raised from the dead because He was so perfect. We're all sinners. We all deserve to die and go to Hell. But because God so love the world that He gave His one and only Son to die for us, to carry our sins for us, to take the punishment that was ours and carried it on his humanly body. He was persecuted, spat on, wrongly judged, cursed, kicked, tortured, and NAILED on the cross, so 2000 years later the whole world can see the greatness of His mercy upon humanity. He died for us when He didn't have to. He chose to. He was so perfect in every way. He was the son of God. He was the light of the world. He was the King of all kings. Yet, with such power, He decided to become the lowest of the most imperfect world, become a servant to all of us. He came to serve when He could so easily be served. He was so humble. He lived on earth, taking a human form so that He can become one of US and eventually die to revolutionised history. We can now come to Him and He will forgive us of our sins. We are now welcome to heaven because our punishment was taken by Jesus himself. The ransom has been paid. Now all that's left is faith and a prayer to accept God into your life. Believing that Jesus did die on the cross for our imperfections. Handing your life over so He can make it unbelievably amazing with His mighty plan. He cares for you. He cares about us. All He wants is to have a relationship with us, with YOU! He longs for that intimate love that no humanly love can be compared to. The greatness of His love will set you free, will break all bondage, will save the lost souls, will restore dreams, will take over the evil spirit, will renew you and make you the co-heir with Christ, inheriting His marvelous kingdom in Heaven if you decide to live for Him today... yes give your life over to Jesus...Today...

MFG: Message from God

I have just finished putting all of notes together from the Conference. It ended up being 10 pages long.


There were many things that I felt God spoke to me about. And here is the list:
These were the notes that I wrote during the the sermons and have now cut & pasted all of the one that was marked with MFG.

• Preach + Mission Work
• He gives you PROVISION for your VISION. (repeated revelation at least 5 times)
• Believe that Mum and Dad will turn to Christ.
• Be the carrier of the Good News!! It is no accident. Start what God has put in your heart. You don’t have to be on the platform to preach. Preaching starts as soon as you spread the Good News to anybody!
• God speaks to the unsaved. (God speaks to my mum without her realising it)
• Model to the generation you want to serve.I am called to disciple a whole nation. (Model for my sister, my friends)
• God wants to use your passion for his Vision, for your purpose! (God is using my hairdressing career to bring me into the powerful people: repeat of my revelation)
• Who are you reaching? Is it good enough just to TELL them about the church but not lead them any further? ( I really need to follow up with people!)
• It may be finished but the best is yet to come! (yes, the best is yet to come)
• The end of an era is not the end of a destiny.
• PROVISION FOR YOUR VISION
• Tell your story: talk about your vision. God’s eyes.
• Oppositions remind us of the position we are in.
• Make a tree of your life of the  godly people that God has given you.
• Make your own phrase line that is simple enough to sum your life.
• Focus on what Jesus did AFTER you got saved. (write my testimony out)
• KNOW your BIBLE. (read it and remember the verses)
• READ “A case for Faith” by Lee Strobel
• Do not let a brief period in your life to define who you are. PRAISE HIM IN ADVANCE WITH FAITH. THANK HIM for all the blessings that are to come. Talk to the future.
• “Help me to help others to come to you”. (Pray for the opportunities to spread the Good News)
• We do not fight against flesh and blood, but with power and the spirit of the wicked.
• REVIVAL HAS HIT THE CITY.
• I am the first generation of the blessing. I draw the line to the curse. My next 4 generations will be great! (I've been chosen out of this family to start a new revival of blessings from God)
• You can be in the storm but don’t let the storm be in you.

Holy Sunday

So I finally have the time to do what I'd like to do.

After this I will start writing up all of the messages that I've got out of Conf. I can't wait till next year. I need to register ASAP. I can't believe how amazing God has been to His people, to me.

Alright, first thing's first.
- Write on my blog which I'm doing now.
- Type up all the messages and plan out all the main points that I've received. 
- Financial planning: search up how to do book-keeping for my spending. (Last night's message of GIVE - SAVE - LIVE from Andy Stanley ;-D )

I'm not sure if I will go church tonight. I will see. I wanted to come to the 12pm service but I woke up late haha. It's alright. I really this time to do this, to study the message.

Things that I still need to plan time for:
- Getting my hair extension IF the colour matches.
- READ READ READ, prepare myself for evangelism
- Get my interior designing modules done one by one. Oh God, I'm so lazy lol. I still have not even touched it. God help me please please.
- Research for the meeting on Wednesday with Xiaohan: hair design for australian birds. (print out pictures)

Saturday night church.

A day after Hillsong Conference.

Alright, so I don't think I have actually written a deep thought about my experience at Conference so I shall start.

I believe this week has been life changing for me. It has been so great and had given me the tools to do what I believe God was calling me to do.

There's so much in my head right now that I don't even know where to start. So many things to get done. So many things. But I'm not worrying. If there was ONE thing I got out of Conf, it'd be:

The greater the opposition, the greater the blessings. And the greater the blessings the greater the opposition. 


TD Jakes messages have been amazing. So was Ed Young and Judah Smith as well as seeing JENTEZEN FRANKLIN in person! lol. I feel like a little a little kid right now of how excited I felt.

I honestly believe that I have the gift of prophesy. I can't predict the future but by the Holy Spirit I will declare on what He tells me will happen in each situation or person's life. I have also been told by others that I have this gift and I believe it in my heart that I do.

It's funny because there was a time when I was questioning my use for God or why I was placed onto this earth. And how I wished I had the talents like others, how I wished I was able to see visions or had a cool revelation from God or how God and trust me enough to show me the future for others bla bla bla... And o-m-g   I'm living it RIGHT NOW! I can do all that. I can't wait to unfold God's wonder and mystery. How great is our God.

I'm so sleepy right now honestly... BUT I have to finish writing my blog of all that's on my heart.

Tonight's church after party was great. It's so awesome to meet different and new people every day. It just makes me realise how God has a plan for each one of us no matter where we come from or where we've been or what has happened to us. God is a faithful God who will carry out the good work for those who obeys and loves him.

I really need a quiet time for myself to write down and put together all of the notes I had for Conf. I need to do that so I can match up with .....



I'm really sleepy. I need to save this thought tomorrow.

See you then. x