DAY 2. So blessed. So thankful

Although I'm feeling really restless right now, but thinking about what God has done in my life makes me forget about all the worries and concerns I'm having.

I just realised when things go wrong, instead of being thankful for what you already have, people start to complain about what's not going right for them. They worry for nothing, being fearful and afraid is not going to change the outcome one bit. It is best to adopt a good attitude with thankfulness & gratitude so you'll live a peaceful life even in the midst of the darkest hours.

It's only the second day of my 21 day fast but I think it will go by pretty quickly. Technically, I've made it 1/10th through the whole process.

For the past few days, according to mum, dad hasn't been arguing or talking loudly to her much, which is good. He also stopped buying the packet-cigarettes and have not opted to the hand-rolled one which he makes at home. I think he finally understands the costs that's affecting him. Besides that, I've been praying for him heaps. I don't know why but I really TRULY feel the Holy Spirit telling me that I have to do something about my dad's current situation and fast for him. I believe for a changing personality and attitude. No matter what happens, I'm not worried, because I know it is all apart of God's plan. Things WILL be okay, I just have to wait for God to do what He has to do, then He will show me the outcome that He has planned all along.

I've also been praying for my graduation, so hopefully God will bless me with that. I still have no idea how to do that headpiece thing. I need to do it tomorrow definitely because I'm running out of time. I need to think of what haircut to do for Arno, and what updo to do for Sveta as well. It will all come tomorrow, I don't have to worry. God is with me.

I've been feeling really sleepy and tired. I was driving today and I felt so blank and sad. I'm not depressed, but I felt emotionless. I just wanted to rest. I have actually been sleeping more than I used to, yet I'm still tired? I don't know. Maybe it's the late nights. :S Not sure.

So today's shoot was alright. I had the experience of being in one of those commercial studio. It was soooo big and there was 10 of those big rooms. Sun Studio, that's what it was called. And it is also the biggest in Australia.

Oh and about yesterday. I stayed up quite late because I was caught up with this new blog called TUMBLR. Amazing photos, may I say. Absolutely breath-taking. So gorgeous!!!!!

My official Journey of 21-day water fast. DAY 1

For some reasons, I kept on forgetting that I was on a fast today. When I saw food, I was about to eat it then I realised I'm not suppose to eat because I'm fasting.

I don't know what has got installed for me after these 21 days. But I do know that something amazing is going to happen. According to the bible, for every person who have fasted, miracles have happened. Miracles took place, vision were given, protection was also granted.

I was so fearful of the car accident. It's because I don't want my mum to find out about it and then we have to pay excess fees for the insurance, especially when I am under 25, I'm not even sure how much it's going to be. I'm just afraid because of the letter that I got yesterday, saying that they want me to be responsible and pay for the damages. I honestly think there was minimal damage but I am unsure of the cost that I have to compensate. I really think that it's not totally my fault. Only you were there God, so you would know. I know it was my fault at the beginning but then I really thought the car moved up and then stopped very suddenly. Besides, only the advertising board were damaged. It fell a little. Oh God. The more I talk about it the more worried I am. I just don't  know how to pay for all this. I don't want to contact my insurance company because it's under my dad's name. I hate this.

Well you know God. I cried out to you yesterday hoping that you would do something about this. Really heal the situation and somehow, just somehow make it disappear. Jesus I really need your help God. I really do. Xiao Wei told me to forget about all the problems and just dwell in your presence. I do know that I have to seek you first then the rest shall be added/removed accordingly. Jesus, my heart is so unsettled. Please get rid of this feeling within my heart. I just want to purely seek you without thoughts of worrying and fear for worldly problems. I really need your help God.

I loved how last night was just a "me & you" night. I just loved reading your words and getting to know the bible more and more. Just by reading the stories that have happened long ago really gives me hope for my future, for my problem because I know you are God and ALL things work together for will.

Please God, erase my fearfulness of this circumstance. I need to put it into your hand and let you deal with it. They are not suing against me, but you. The battle is not mine to take but yours. You will go forefront and fight the battle for me, you will figure out a way and you will protect me. I don't have to worry because you are my God and greater is He who is in me than he who is in the world.

Desperate help. In need of Jesus. (Fasting)

Fasting

"And I set my face unto the Lord God, to seek by prayer and supplications,
with fasting, and sackcloth, and ashes: And I prayed unto the Lord God,
and made my confession... "  Daniel 9:34

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© Copyright 1976, 1977, 1998 Diane S. Dew
I.    Is there a place for fasting in New Testament times?
      A.   Fasting was not required of the disciples of Jesus.
                     Matthew 9:14 (Mark 2:18; Luke 5:33) "Then came to him the disciples
                     of John, saying, Why do we and the Pharisees fast often, but thy disciples
                     fast not?"
       B.   But Jesus spoke of a day when there would be a place for fasting.
                     Matthew 6:16-18 (Not "if," but "when ye fast ...") "Moreover when ye fast,
                     ...But thou, when thou fastest..."
                     Matthew 9:14-15 (Luke 5:34-35) "And Jesus said unto them, Can the
                     children of the bridechamber mourn, as long as the bridegroom is with them?
                     But the days will come, when the bridegroom shall be taken from them, and
                     then shall they fast."

II.   What guidelines are set forth in scripture concerning fasting?
         A.   It is to be done in a manner of humility and secrecy.
                     Matthew 6:16-18  "Moreover when ye fast, be not as the hypocrites,
                     of a sad countenance: for they disfigure their faces, that they may appear
                     unto men to fast. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward. But thou,
                     when thou fastest, anoint thine head, and wash thy face; that thou appear
                     not unto men to fast, but unto thy Father which is in secret ..."
                     Luke 18:9-14 "And he spake this parable unto certain which trusted in
                     themselves that they were righteous, and despised others: Two men went up
                     into the temple to pray. . . The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself,
                     God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are . . . I fast twice in the week,
                     I give tithes . . . And the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much
                     as his eyes unto heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to
                     me a sinner. I tell you, this man went down to this house justified rather than
                     the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that
                      humbleth himself shall be exalted."
         B.   Fasting is closely related to prayer and reading of the Word.
                     I Samuel 1:6-8, 17-18, etc. "And her adversary . . . provoked her; therefore
                     she wept, and did not eat. Then said Elkanah her husband to her, Hannah,
                     why weepest thou? and why eatest thou not? and why is thy heart grieved? ...
                     Then Eli answered and said, Go in peace: and the God of Israel grant thee thy
                     petition that thou hast asked of him . . ."
                     Nehemiah 1:4 ". . . when I heard these words, I sat down and wept, and
                     mourned certain days, and fasted, and prayed before the God of heaven."
                     Nehemiah 9: 1-3 ". . . the children of Israel were assembled with fasting . . .
                     and stood and confessed their sins . . . and read in the book of the law of
                     the Lord their God one fourth part of the day; and another fourth part they
                      confessed, and worshipped the Lord their God."
                     Daniel 9:3, 20 "And I set my face unto the Lord God, to seek by prayer and
                     supplication, with fasting . . . and while I was speaking, and praying, and
                     confessing my sin and the sin of my people Israel, and presenting my
                     supplication . . ."
                     Joel 2:12 ". . . turn ye even to me with all your heart, and with fasting, and
                     with weeping, and with mourning."
                     Jonah 3:8, etc. "For word came unto the king ... and he caused it to be
                     proclaimed and published ... saying, Let neither man nor beast, herd nor
                      flock, taste any thing: let them not feed, nor drink water: But let man and
                     beast be covered with sackcloth, and cry mightily unto God ... Who can
                     tell if God will ... turn away from his fierce anger ... And God saw ..."
                     Luke 2:37 "And she was a widow of about 44 years, which departed not
                     from the temple, but served God with fastings and prayers night and day."
                     Acts 9:9, 11 "And he was three days without sight, and neither did eat nor drink."
                     Acts 10:30 "Four days ago I was fasting until this hour; and at the ninth hour
                     I prayed in my house, and, behold, a man stood before me in bright clothing."
                     Acts 13:2 "As they ministered to the Lord, and fasted, the Holy Ghost said . . ."
                     Acts 14:23 "And when they had ordained them elders in every church, and had
                     prayed with fasting, they commended them to the Lord . . ."
                     I Corinthians 7:5 ". . . that ye may give yourselves to fasting and prayer . . ."

         C.    A fast may be either absolute or partial.
                 1.   Examples of absolute (complete) fasts:
                               Deuteronomy 9:9, 18 ". . . 40 nights, I neither did eat bread
                               nor drink water."
                               Ezra 10:6 "Ezra. . . did eat no bread, nor drink water: for he mourned . . ."
                               Esther 4:16 "Go, gather together all the Jews . . . and fast ye for me,
                               and neither eat nor drink three days, night or day . . ."
                               Acts 9:9 ". . . and neither did eat nor drink"
                               Acts 27:33 ". . . This is the fourteenth day that ye have tarried and
                               continued fasting, having taken nothing."
                   2.   Examples of partial fasts (abstinence from certain foods only):
                               I Kings chapter 17
                               Daniel 10:3 "I ate no pleasant bread, neither came flesh nor wine
                                in my mouth, neither did I anoint myself at all, till three whole weeks
                               were fulfilled."
          D.    There is a place for both the corporate (group) and the individual (personal) fast.
                  1.   Examples of corporate fasts:
                               I Samuel 7:5-6 "And Samuel said, Gather all Israel ... and they gathered
                               ... and fasted ... "
                               II Chronicles 20:34
                               Ezra 8:21-23 "Then I proclaimed a fast ... So we fasted and besought
                               our God ..."
                               Nehemiah 9:1-3 " ... the children of Israel were assembled with fasting ..."
                               Joel 2:15-16 "... sanctify a fast, call a solemn assembly; gather the people ..."
                               Jonah 3:5-10 "the people ... proclaimed a fast ... from the greatest of them
                               even to the least"
                               Acts 27:33-37
                    2.   Examples of the individual fast:
                               II Samuel 12:15-16, 22-23 "... and David fasted, and went in, and lay all
                               night upon the earth."
                               I Kings 21:27-29 "When Ahab heard those words, he... fasted, and lay in
                               sackcloth, and went softly."
                               Psalms 35:13 "But as for me, when they were sick, my clothing was
                               sackcloth: I humbled my soul with fasting ..."
                               Daniel 9:3 "And I set my face unto the Lord God, to seek by prayer ...
                               with fasting ..."
                               Luke 2:36-37 "And there was one Anna, a prophetess ... a widow
                               of about 44 years, which departed not from the temple, but served
                               God with fastings and prayers night and day."
                               Acts 9:9 " ... and neither did eat nor drink."

III.   Fasting in itself is of no spiritual value (Isaiah 58; Jeremiah 14:12; I Corinthians 8:8) –
        "that which is of the flesh is flesh," John 3:6 – but it is the attitude of a heart sincerely
        seeking Him to which God responds with blessing.
               Joel 2:12, 13 "Rend your heart, and not your garments ..."
               Romans 14:6, 17
               I Corinthians 15:50
        A.    Only fasting that is done with the right motive, that of glorifying God, can be
                pleasing in His sight.
                          Isaiah chapter 58 "Wherefore have we fasted, say they, and thou seest
                          not? ... Behold, in the day of your fast ye find pleasure ... ye fast for strife
                          and debate ... ye shall not fast as ye do this day ... Is it such a fast that I
                          have chosen? To loose the bands ... to undo the heavy burdens ... to deal
                          thy bread to the hungry, and that thou bring the poor that are cast out to
                          thy house? When thou seest the naked, that thou cover him ..."
                          Zechariah 7:5-6 "... When ye fasted and mourned ... those 70 years, did ye
                          at all fast unto me, even to me?"
                          Matthew 6:16-18 "The hypocrites ... disfigure their faces, that they may
                          appear unto men to fast."
                          Luke 18:9-14 "The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I am
                          not as other men are ... I fast twice in the week ..."
            B.   The same Bible that teaches abstaining from foods (as God leads) also warns us
                   against testing the Lord (Matthew 4:7).
                   1.   Our bodies are the temple of the Holy Spirit (I Corinthians 6:9), and we are
                          to care for them as such (v. 20).
                   2.    It may indeed be profitable for a season for us to exercise severe discipline,
                          to "keep under my body, and bring it into subjection" (I Corinthians 9 :27),
                          to be "temperate in all things" (I Corinthians 9 :25), but we must also realize
                          that "that which is flesh is flesh," and we cannot produce spiritual results –
                          however sincere our intentions – from that which is purely flesh.
                    3.   To deny the flesh of its natural desires may cause us to be more "in tune" to
                          hear the voice of the Lord (Deuteronomy 9:18, 25, etc.), but it also places
                          us in a realm more easily prone to the attack of the enemy. It was when Jesus
                          had been fasting for 40 days that He was faced with the greatest Satanic
                          attack (Matthew 4:1-3; Luke 4:1-2).
       C.   Scripture warns that in the last days there will be many "forbidding to marry, and
              commanding to abstain from meats," etc. (I Timothy 4:1-3). We are to test the spirits,
              to see whether they be of God (I John 4:1).

IV.   How long should I fast?
        A.   Bible personalities fasted and sought God diligently until they obtained from God
               what they desired (see the examples of Hannah, I Samuel 1:6-8, 17-18; and Paul,
               Acts 9:9,17-19) – or until the Lord made it evident that what they requested simply
               would not be obtained (as in the case of David, II Samuel 12:15-23).
        B.   The length of a fast may vary.
               1.   One night.
                          Daniel 6:18
                2.   One day.
                          I Samuel 7:6
                          II Samuel 1:12; 3:35
                          Judges 20:26
                3.   Three days and three nights.
                          Esther 4:16
                          Acts 9:9, 17-19
                4.   Seven days.
                          I Samuel 31:13
                          II Samuel 12:16-23
                5.   Fourteen days.
                          Acts 27:33-34
                 6.  Twenty-one days.
                          Daniel 10:3-13
                  7.   Forty days.
                        a.   Moses (at two different times).
                                      Exodus 24:18; 34:28
                                      Deuteronomy 9:9, 18, 25-29; 10:10
                         b.   Elijah.
                                      I Kings 19:8
                          c.   Jesus.
                                      Matthew 4:2 (Mark 1:13; Luke 4:2)

V.   When should I fast?
               Many occasions for fasting are recorded in scripture.

        A.   The ordination of elders and commissioning of apostles to ministry.
                         Acts 13:3 "And when they had fasted and prayed, and laid their hands
                         on them, they sent them away."
                         Acts 14:23 "And when they had ordained them elders in every church,
                         and had prayed with fasting, they commended them to the Lord..."
         B.   Intercession for the people of God.
                         Exodus 24:18
                         Deuteronomy 9:8-9, 12-20, 23-27
                         Ezra 10:6
                         Daniel 9:3-4
                         Joel 2:12-14, 17-18
                         Jonah 3:5-10
           C.   Humbling and chastening of oneself.
                         I Kings 21:27-29 "... Seest thou how Ahab humbleth himself before me?"
                         Psalms 35:13 "... I humbled myself with fasting ..."
                         Psalms 69:10 "I wept, and chastened my soul with fasting ..."
            D.   Seeking the Lord and His way.
                         Judges 20:26-28, etc. "Then all the children of Israel, and all the people,
                         went up, and came unto the house of God, and wept, and sat there before
                         the Lord, and fasted that day until evening, and ... inquired of the Lord ...
                         (whether to) go out to battle ... And the Lord said, Go up ..."
                         II Chronicles 20:3 "And Jehoshaphat feared, and set himself to seek the
                         Lord, and proclaimed a fast throughout all Judah."
                         Ezra 8:21-23 "Then I proclaimed a fast ... that we might afflict ourselves
                         before our God, to seek of him a right way for us, and for our little ones,
                         and for all our substance. For I was ashamed to ask the king ... to help us
                         against the enemy in the way: because we had spoken unto the king, saying,
                         The hand of our god is upon all them for good that seek him ... So we
                         fasted and besought our God for this: and he was intreated of us."
          E.   Repentance and confession of sin.
                         I Samuel 7:6
                         I Kings 21:27-29
                         Ezra 10:6 "... he ate no bread, nor drank water: for he mourned because
                          of the transgression ..."
                         Nehemiah 1:4-7, etc. "...when I heard these words, I sat down and wept,
                         and mourned certain days, and fasted, and prayed..."
                         Nehemiah 9:1-3 "... the children of Israel were assembled with fasting ...
                         and stood and confessed their sins ... one fourth part of the day ... they confessed ..."
                         Jeremiah 36:6-10
                         Daniel 9:3-5, 20 "... confessing my sin and the sin of my people ..."
                         Jonah 3:5-10
           F.   Receiving healing.
                         I Samuel 1:5-11, 18-20
                         II Samuel 12:15-16, 22-23
                         Isaiah 58:8
                         Acts 9:9, 17-19
             G.   Petitioning God to withhold His hand in judgment.
                         Deuteronomy 9:18, 25 "And I fell down before the Lord ... I did
                         neither eat bread, nor drink water, because of all your sins ... because
                         the Lord had said he would destroy you."
                         Isaiah 58:9
              H.   Preparation to receive word from God.
                         Deuteronomy 9:18, 25
                         Isaiah 58:9
               I.   Spiritual deliverance.
                         Isaiah 58:6 "Is not this the fast that I have chose? To loose the bands
                          ... to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the oppressed go free, and
                         that ye break every yoke?"
                         Mark 9:29 (Matthew 17:21) "And he said unto them, This kind can
                         come forth by nothing, but by prayer and fasting."
               J.   Seeking assistance in time of fear.
                         II Chronicles 20:3 "And Jehoshaphat feared, and set himself to seek the
                         Lord, and proclaimed a fast ..."
               K.   Mourning another's death (II Samuel 1:12; 3:35); out of concern for
                         another's safety (Daniel 6:18); or when faced with threats on one's
                         own life (Esther 4:3; 9:1-3).
               L.   Seeking protection.
                          Ezra 8:21-23
                M.   Lacking material provision; in need.
                         II Corinthians 11:27 "... in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often ..."

VI.   Fasting is an extremely valuable and important facet of the Christian life;
        but it is not an infallible means of "getting what we want" from God.
        (Jeremiah 14:12 "When they fast, I will not hear their cry ...") Example: II Samuel
        12:15-23 (David's son died anyway.) Obedience is better than sacrifice (I Samuel 15:22).

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sugar is so addictive, but it kills you!

So yesterday and today. I experience two similar feelings. The feeling of being overloaded with the killing ingredient called "sugar".

It's been quite cold and I think what I'm craving for is comfort food, but what really satisfies me at the end of the day is God's amazing food: fruits & vegetables. Nothing can EVER , EVER replace the same feeling of eating such pure and nourished food such as that.

Today was suppose to be my 1st day of the fasting but I decided to hold it off until tomorrow because I think the number 21 is a pretty significant number and I want to fast until the last day of conference which is 9th July. Starting from today would mean that I would finish on the 8th so I've decided to start tomorrow. I really want to do this.

I so want to purify my body off all the bad poisons and chemicals that's been storing up for so long. My body definitely need this break! I need to give it the permission to do so.

I can't wait for when the whole thing will be over. Not only will my relationship with the Lord bond closer, but my overall healthy will most definitely improve like never before. I just can't wait.

I need healing. I need it.

Day 1/21 fasting

I think I will start my 21 day fast today. Actually it will be 22 days because I want to complete it on the 9th July which is the end of conference week. I really feel like I need to do this. 


I need to do it, not only for those reasons I've listed in the last post but I also need it for my health. But I know as long as I seek God first, the rest will be added to me. I just want to be healthy. Cleanse my body which I know God will certainly do, and in the process, grow in God's presence more than ever before. 


Okay so today is my first day out of the 21 days water fast. I hope I can go through with just water but I will listen to my body if I need juice. But I know I can do this. It will be hard, but I can get through this and I can't wait for the amazing things that are going to take place after this fast. 


Jesus is so great. I love Him. Thank you Holy Spirit for speaking to me.

One step at a time

Today is wednesday. And I've done my first model.

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. Eventhough the colour did not turn out exactly like how I planned but I know God has an amazing plan, way better than mine. Once again, I trusted in God and in my instinct. Even up until this morning, I still had no idea what I was going to do with Jelina's hair. I did not know what cut or colour to do. But I wasn't panicking because I know for a fact that Jesus would show me a way. Even up until when the colour was mixed, I wasn't still sure what sectioning pattern to do. I felt like God guided me through my way spontaneously without me realising. So this morning, all I did was testing out and experimenting with different colour, shades and tone. Just to see what the result would turn out like.

It's amazing how God works thing out so perfectly. The dress that Jess brought in was just prefect. Everything is falling into place now I think. I still need to do the hair piece for Sveta. I still need to colour the extention pieces for Jelina and I still need to cut & colour Arno's hair. But I'm not worried at all. Because GOD IS WITH ME!  HE is with me! Who shall I fear, of whom shall I be afraid?!

I'm so truly thankful for everything. I know my hard work will pay off. But truly, I don't think I'm that great at all, without my God. Everything is all credited to Him. He gave me the vision. He helped me. He sent people to me and used me to show the whole world His amazing creativity. I can't wait till graduation when everyone will be able to see what God has done in my life.

And for that reason. I will fast! I will fast again because this means so much to me. It is so important to me and I know God wants to prepare me for the future. Who knows, there might be guests there who are interested in getting me to work for them. You never know! But whatever happens, I know it only happened because God is precisely planning the right path for me to get to the destination He wants me to be at. Even if bad things happen, God works them for good because He cares.

I'm really hungry for God's presence and words. I had so so much sweet stuff today and I felt absolutely sick! The more bad food I eat, the more I realised how great God's food is. It is so nourishing, fulfilling, full of nutrients, mouth watering, deliciously yummy and refresing! God is so amazing. Thank you Jesus for your food. I honestly hate fake food but I do have to admit they taste good. BUT how you feel after they've been in your stomach is YUCK YUCK YUCK! Devil's food! LOL.

So for the past 2 days. I've really felt like God's telling me to fast for my Dad. I kept on feeling the Holy Spirit speaking to me and reminding me that I need to fast for my Dad. I know I should start soon. There are many reasons that I need to fast for and I have a whole heap of prayer requests.

Okay so here's what I want to fast for:

• My dad especially (family also) for his change of behaviour
• My graduation on Tuesday 22nd June
• The HEART FOR THE HOUSE offering 25th - 26th June
• Hillsong Conference 5th - 9th July
• Wella Trend Vision State finals 6th July. 

So that's A  LOT of reasons WHY I should start fasting. 

This time I really want to do a 21 days fast. I know it will be hard but I know I will be able to do it. I can do it because God will be with me and everything is possible with God. I want to experience that closure again. And I only really felt that way when I seek God first and leave all the worldly things behind including food. 

I truly believe many miracles will take form. I just have to be persistent. I have to really want this in order to succeed through the end which I know I will. I will and I will. I know when you seek first God's Kingdom, His heart will be all yours, He will give you blessings beyond the imaginary and a new level of faith like never before. Even such a great love that no one can ever fathom. 

I'm thinking to start it tomorrow or on Friday, because that will be exactly 21 days until the end of conference week. Maybe that might be a good idea. But I really want to fast asap.

Okay I'll see what God has to say.

I eat SO much LOL

Well today is the 2nd day since I finished my fast and I've got to say that "I" eat "a lot"! I mean so much. The more I eat, the more I realised that you don't need food to keep you going, all you need is God. I've eaten so much these past 2 days that I can not even imagine myself not eating for 7 days LOL. If I had to list down everything I've consumed, I'd be so embarrassed hahaha. I'll just say ONE example. I ate a WHOLE Domino pizza BY MYSELF this afternoon LOL. Okay is that bad enough? And I don't usually eat pizza. I guess I was just craving for that nice crispy texture and yeahhhh. Oh well.

I just had my teeth cleaned as well and it hurts! Mum kept on telling me how it doesn't even hurt but it DID. I don't know why, maybe it was just me. But yeah I'm glad I got it cleaned because I feel cleaner now.

I keep wanting to eat really healthily but I can't stop consuming all the food that I crave. At least I'm not as bad as how I was. I mean, I can still control my appetite. My waiting for God's calling to fast again. I really want to experience that again. I'm hungry for God's words. I just want to go through another fast. I will definitely do it for my graduation, but I'm not sure if I should do it the day before or ON the day. I guess I will have to see.

I'm also fasting for the conference week. OMG I just remembered that the heart of the house offering is coming up! It is the week of my graduation. I really want to try out that 21 days fast you know. But I'm not sure if I can. I know I can if it is God's calling. Seriously, that's like 3 weeks. 3 times as much as what I've just been through. However, I think it is manageable and the outcome will be absolutely amazing!

I still haven't started on  my head piece, i still need to get the jeans for Arno. I still need to think of what haircut to do on Jelina. What colour to do on her hair. I'm still unsure of many things but surprisingly I'm not panicking? Isn't that a bit weird? I trust in God that He will deliver me creativity. I trust that He will speak to me, speak to my hands and just let his creativity come alive, take its shape and form. I can't wait for everything to come together. It will be so great!

Okay God, please speak to me now. Tell me what you want me to do. I need wisdom!

'The' new day.

Today is the first day of my the new era, the beginning of something great as I finish my 7 days. My faith have grown so much these past 7 days. God have finally taught me a lesson about trusting in him and how when I dwell onto his name and seek first His Kingdom, the rest will be added onto my wish list. Even though there were several things that was not included in my agenda for prayer list, God gave it to me anyway. God have finally taken away my love for food. I was struggling with that so much, and now I'm a totally different person. When I look at pancake or gelato or any types of food that used to make me go "Hmmmmm....I WANT SOME", I would no longer care whether or not I will or won't have it. I just simply don't care. When I broke my fast. It was very funny actually. I really thought the taste of food would be so amazing in my mouth because I haven't had for so long, yet when I did have it, it wasn't even that great. Consuming all those chips and junk was just an added discomfort that I didn't need. Fruits the way to go. Real food, is THE way to go.

So now that I have accomplished my 7 days fast. I feel very renewed and strong. I'm waiting for God's calling to do another one. I don't know for how long but I'd love to aim for a 21 days. That would be very hard but if I feel as though God is telling me I should then I will do it.

One good news actually. Well not the only one, but one of it. I finally fit my denim short (: which I've been aiming for like a year now? LOL. I guess the side effect of weight loss caused that, but still, I have finally fit it and I'm wearing it right now! It feels so amazing for it not to be tight but just right (: I love how I look although I'd love to work out and be more toned (:

Well, that's it for now. I'm going to study the word of God. There are billions of things for me to do, but for some reasons I'm not stressing out. I know they will find their ways. I should just do what I love doing. Put myself in the presence of the Lord! Amen!

7/7 DAY fasting

o-m-g

I can still not believe I've made it this far. I can't believe that I have not eaten anything in 7 days. It's 4 hours and 8 minutes till I can break my fast which is at 12:00am. I still can not believe it. I'm a type who loves food, and getting me to stay on track without junk food is already hard, let a lone going without food ALL TOGETHER.
I praise God for His amazing blessing. I'm so glad He had lead me to do this. This was really important to build my faith to another level.

I love you Jesus. Okay so right now I'm feeling really restless, I've had probably 1/2 liter of water and then I decided that I will consume no food or water until 12:00am. I'm not doing it to torture myself, I just want to remind myself that I don't need water or food to make me feel better, to fill me up. All I need is my God and everything will be fine. Every time I get that hunger and thirst attack, I think about my God and how great He is to me. How He helped me through these 7 days.

I thank Him that His words were really getting into my heart. I can really feel Him reinforcing the message of the power of 2, unlimited potential and being faithful when trouble comes.

I thank Him also for bringing Diego and Natalia to Hillsong today. I'm so glad they've enjoyed it. It was my pleasure to tell them about church and it did not matter to me that I spent my last amount of money on the Spanish Album and food for them. I love to give. I love to bring happiness into people's lives.

Okay, right now I'm really really hungry. I'm thinking what I will get once 12:00am comes. I haven't eaten for 7 days, so I really wonder what I will become my first meal in a week LOL.

Tomorrow is a another shoot. I pray that God will give me inspiration to create something different, unique and amazing. None like any other. I believe in Him. I believe in his power and I know He was telling me not be anxious and just wait for His creativity to come alive through my hand. I don't  have to do anything other than following my instincts and what the spirit says.

It's been a tough, but an AMAZING week. I really felt closer to God. I really felt sensitive to His presence. Thank you Jesus.