GYM GYM GYM

I need to start a new way of life. I'm sick of seeing myself like this. I hate how I look. I hate how I feel. I hate it. I hate it and I know this not how God intended me to look like. I need to change my way of living. The way I eat, the way I move, the way I act & behave towards food!

Especially when I'm going overseas late this year and so I want to look my best. First impression is so key and I want to represent myself as best as I can, particularly when they haven't seen me in over 8 years.

I'm going to sign up to a gym tomorrow. I know this means that I need to spend more but I'm willing. I don't have the facility at home and I've been going crazy about it. Tonight, I'm going to finish reading my ebook "Fit for Life". I've just planned my day for tomorrow so hopefully I can really make the most of tomorrow. I also need to go to OfficeWork so I can print off some pictures since I need to design my vision board.

Okay God, be with me.

This will be another new beginning. But this time. I pray Jesus. I pray that you will help me to stay persistently strong and not give up. Please remind me of the reward that you have promised to provide. I want to set myself a 12 weeks/ 3months goal. I really want to do this. I want to settle this once and for all. I've been struggling with my image for so many years and I need to do this! For myself and for God's glory.

Jesus, be with me.

Wonder of your Love

I'm so happy to have Jesus in my life. Tonight was definitely worth spending with Caroline. I'm so glad I had the chance to speak "life" into her future.

I really loved today and I have definitely made the most out of my day. If only every day could be like this but I know it can't. I had a day break and I'm glad it was spent in the will of God. I got my green P's Licence this morning to start off the day, which was pretty cool. Then lunch with Joe was absolutely amazing. He inspired me so much and I'm so happy that God had allowed me to meet him. His testimony really touched me and made me stronger in faith for my mum. She WILL be saved and I just need to keep keeping on (: I can't wait till the day when she finally falls in love with the love of my life. We spoke about many things and he told me about the Stock Market and o-m-g it made me so fascinated! It was amazing honestly. I'm so interested and it makes me really want to invest. I know I should be careful not to fall in love with the money but treat it as God's possession. He gives it and we manage it. I know that I should not get too attached to such thing because the consequences will be shattering and devastating, ie my dad.

I really hope he can teach me about this so I can do it for him. I have the willingness to learn God and if you can trust me, please allow me to do it for you. I know it seems like I want to do everything, always wanting to try out new things and CAN have a hard time staying persistent but I believe that if it is your calling then there will always be a passion that will pull me through.

I would love the chance to work for Christina as well, I believe I will learn very much. I can't believe why and how I still haven't been able to finish off the course?! I would love to but I just don't have the motivation. Why then, do I want to take up that interior designing position?! I don't get myself sometimes. But let's just leave it up to time.

I really want to watch some sermons tonight because it is now the 7th and it should be the first day of the new cycle, but for some reason it is still slow. I don't know why.

God help me Jesus, with everything and I thank you for my sisters and mum. They are amazing. Thank you for protecting us through it all.

x

P2

I got my green P's YAY!!!

Thank you God.

Just got Chi some of her early presents as well (:

Hoping to get the Iphone 4 real soon! And Chi's phone as well!

Another hurdle, but it's the last round

Jesus Almighty God! My Father, One and Only. No one will ever be able to take you away from me! You are the ultimate Father. None can ever take your place or is able to provide what you are able to give. Jesus, although my dad is how he is, but you are NOT like that at all. I'm glad that You are the ONE that I can always place trust upon. You will never let me down, I can always have total trust in you and I'm so glad.


God, things are definitely getting harder and harder. But I know one thing for sure. It's going to be over soon. It's going to be over real soon. Won't be much longer. 


Well my family is quite a mess at the moment. And as the days go by, I am more firmly believe that my dad is possessed by the spirit of destruction. He always speak of "steal, kill and destroy" and that's exactly what the devil is here to do. Chi was crying today and I felt really bad for her. I just realised how precious moments are. How wonderful time is if you are able to cherish it. I love her so much. And that's the reason why I've taken her out to eat tonight so we can spend quality time together. I'm glad we did and I'm also glad that she liked the food at Mamak. 

Well apparently, dad asked Chi if she wanted to go with him after the divorce and she said she will think about it.  But I know for a fact that she won't. I don't think she will have a good future with him anyway. I mean, seriously, he only wants her for the money. I could not even believe it when he said he will not allow any of us (me and my big sister) have any of the money. It will only be divided into 3's and if Chi goes with him, he will get her part, if she goes with mum, mum will get it. But I don't get it. Why did he even agreed to dividing it into 5's before. He said "no worries" and now, it's like him turning 360 degree changing his mind. Another thing is that, he told us that he would NOT regret leaving us (his children) once he's gone, then WHY is he wanting Chi so bad? If he did not care, why would he want us, if it wasn't for a different reason, which is money. 


I could not even believe how much he threatens mum. He said he will give her a new trouble everyday. That he will always give her a hard time and that he will "demolish" the house meaning that he will do something to take that Belmore property away from us. Man, honestly I'm not even worried. It's not even his place anyway. It's the house that mum bought even before he came to Australia. Besides, even if he DID prove that it was his, then there are hundreds of thousands of dollars that is still in debt, so go on dad, pay for that if you have the money! Besides, if you are going to be that meaningless, pay mum back the money she spent to get you to Australia. Easily costs any where near 100 K. Seriously, he is pouring fuel onto his own fire.


But you know what, I trust in God and I know for a fact that this is going to be over soon. I just can't begin to comprehend what has happened to him or where/who/from what he was influenced from to make him turn to the person he is now. It's really scaring thinking of all the things he has said and done up to this point. I have my trust in the Lord. I know He will carry me through. And the 5th revelation I got yesterday was mind blowing as well. Opening up a page from "Fit for my King" and it read 

" Open your bible right now and ask the Lord to speak to your spirit through His Word. You will find a Word just for you from the Father in Heaven"

So before I open my bible I prayed and God told me to read Isaiah 60. I flipped out my bible and it WAS Isaiah (47/48) so I went to chapter 60 and started reading. To my amazement, everything that was written in that chapter spoke about ME! God's promises to me and everything that is to come. Things about my situation and how I should "Arise and shine", how I will bring up a nation, leave lasting impact, about my future home and its neighbourhood, about the generations to come, and so on. It was so amazing. Unbelievable! It spoke right to me here and there, everything was related to my situation and it brought me so my affirmation and strength as well as faith and trust. I love God so much.


Previously, I thought that I should not take that Interior Designing job, but now I'm not too sure anymore. I think I should take it. I thought that it had nothing to do with my future therefore I shouldn't take it plus my family's situation is in the way. But now thinking back to all that, I think my perspective was limited. Just because it doesn't have anything to do with hair, doesn't mean that it won't benefit me. I believe it will teach me so much about organisational skill, management skill, merchandising skill, communication skill, and much much much more.  I truly believe that this is something great to take advantage of. God also spoke to me about how every person that I come in contact with/ work with will be blessed through the power of God that's poured upon me. I'm so happy. I'm so blessed. I feel so privileged. I'm not sure about the timing and how I would get there and when I would start work but for now, I really do feel like God is telling me "take a shot", "trust me".


So I think it might be something worth doing. Besides, her words were very encouraging. 

"This also shows to me that you are the kind of person I am looking for in terms of character and this speaks for you. I wanted you tell you that I feel that we connected during our talk and l am very positive about taking you on board."

It made me feel good and it also speaks to me of the person that she is. She has the same value as I do, most definitely.

Anyways, I'm going for my green P's tomorrow and I hope God will take care of me. I heard that it is easy and I'm praying that I won't fail LOL. But I know Jesus has his hand upon me which me there is only one outcome: Success. And if that is a promise, it will not turn out otherwise. It WILL only be success!

I trust in Jesus. I hope that I will have everything I need ready so the process can go as smooth as possible. After that I'm not sure what I'm going to do, except that I need to meet up with Joe for lunch. Oh and at night I'd also need to meet up with Jovie to fix her hair. I'm not too sure what I will do during those time, but I think I should take some rest and clean my room at least, then get back into reading God's words or meet up with Caroline. Yeah sounds like a better idea. I don't feel like cutting hair though, I just want to spend quality time together and relax, chat and pray. I pray for God's guidance and direction for tomorrow, for everything that I do and for all the decisions that I will make. I also pray that God's will shall be carried out and that my mouth will only speak of His wonder & love. That I will speak of things that build others up not deflate them down.

In all of the amazing power. I love you Jesus. I love you God!

xx

Monday. I'm excited for what's to come

Today another guy left his number, hoping I was going to contact him, but it went right in the bin. What's with guys these days making all these "safe" move. They're all afraid of rejection that's why they prefer to leave it up to the girl to contact them. Well I understand. I'm not interested so that's why I did not contact any of them. Unlike that time when "M _ _ _" gave me his number AHAHHAHAHAHHAHHHA. I was full excited, and after going on that first date (which was also the last) I was like "head over heel" for himmm. hahah So stupid of me, but funny. I'm just looking forward to the guy that God has planned for me. I really do believe in first sight attraction. We would just know. Because it's fate.

I have so many things to be grateful and excited for. I'm going to get the Iphone 4, Sunday night live is coming up, I'm seeing Caroline tomorrow (and it will the start to my connect group), I'm getting baptist next week, and then the photo-shoot, then starting Vardering, and eventually work for T&G as a stylist. Not only that but hopefully we will get to go on holiday at the end of the year as well (:

But most of all, for my ways to match with God's will so ultimately I can bring the glory to God's Kingdom! I love Jesus

Wonderful Jesus on this Sunday night Church! (:

Amazing, amazing, my God is absolutely amazing.

Well I actually stayed up until 4 or 5 am something last night watching youtube. It just really touched me and reconfirms to me of God's words and the realities of Heaven and Hell. I'm so glad I am living right now and I'm so glad that I ran by those videos because I needed to know that. I need to prepare myself as well. I also have to keep on praying and praying for God's miracles to be released. He already has it right in His  hands but it can only be released by earnest prayers and repetitions, until those pages in Heaven smokes up and tear out from the book for the angels to come to earth and answer our deepest needs. Jesus is so amazing.

It also reinforces WHERE my love ones will end up being if they are not saved. I will continue to pray for my mum. Just because I know God will save her doesn't mean I will stop praying. In fact I will praise him even more for the future blessings He will bring to my family. He is so great and there is no one like Him.

I just want to say thank you to Jesus again for tonight's 5pm sermon by Krishan. He was amazing. The reason is because I really felt like God was telling me some THINGS. I've been unsure about connect group for a while and I'm thinking of starting it later when it is more "comfortable" for me. But I know that should not be the case. We should not try to fit God around us, but fit ourselves around God. We should just trust his words and go with it. I know God was speaking directly at me. He repeated the idea that I can only be trusted with a lot if I can be trusted with little. Therefore, I don't have to have a group, I can just start out with ONE person. And I'm thinking of just catching up with Caroline then start inviting people to come along to this small group.

This August will be amazing and I know many exciting things will take place. I will definitely be bring people to the Sunday Night Live. I know it will be fun and life changing. The 15th of August is my baptism! I can't wait. I've been a Christian for 7 years now and this is my official baptism for God to cleanse me out of this sinful earthly body. I'm bringing my little sister along as well so that would be great! On the 16th will be my first day for the Vardering course. This is very exciting. I know that I'm reaching 3/4 through the year and there are plenty of great things left that God wants me to do, see & accomplish. I'm just so thankful to be the child of God. I love Jesus and can't wait to live with him in Heaven for eternity.

One more thing. This week has to be my highest income week, ever, considering I don't really work outside and only help out with my family's business. My mum does give me money. It's more like a salary than a wage. I don't mind how much she pays me really. It's more to help her and because she decides to pay me, I've used this as a way to earn my independent finance. So I've made $850 in all this week, $350 from the restaurant and $500 from doing hair extension. Pretty good right. And it all comes down to God's blessing. For the past few weeks, ever since conference, I've made a decision to always bring my 10% tithe and offering to the house of God, and every week I've done so with GLADNESS. I'm so happy to bring this contribution into the storehouse because I know it will be used to bring God's kingdom forward. I can't wait to bring more in. It makes me so happy to know that I am able to make a difference. I don't like to keep count of how much I give the church though, because I think that's really unnecessary. I know I've given what I could but money isn't everything. It comes and go and if it is put in the right project, it will flourish, if not, it will just be wasted. For the Kingdom of God to grow even more, I need to put myself out there in confidence. I have to make a STAND! I have to have confidence in my Lord Jesus and use what I've already got to step out into the dark world. I can't wait until I think I'm ready, I can't trust on my own ability because I will never be ready otherwise, but by the power of God, I know it will all change, supernaturally. Jesus will be with me and miraculous things will take place!

AMEN!!!!

HELL is Real. Heaven is oh SOO real!

Habit 3 - First things First

Quadrant II


Urgent matters are usually visible. They press on us; they insist on action. They're often popular
with others. They're usually right in front of us. And often they are pleasant, easy, fun to do. But so
often they are unimportant!

TIME MANAGEMENT MATRIXfrom Stephen Covey’s book “First Things First”

	Urgent	Not Urgent
	I (MANAGE) Crisis Medical emergencies Pressing problems Deadline-driven projects Last-minute preparations for scheduled activities	II (FOCUS) Preparation/planning Prevention Values clarification Exercise Relationship-building True recreation/relaxation
	Quadrant of Necessity	Quadrant of Quality & Personal Leadership
	III (AVOID) Interruptions, some calls Some mail & reports Some meetings Many “pressing” matters Many popular activities	IV (AVOID) Trivia, busywork Junk mail Some phone messages/email Time wasters Escape activities Viewing mindless TV shows
	Quadrant of Deception	Quadrant of Waste

To paraphrase Peter Drucker, effective people are not problem-minded; they're opportunity-minded. They feed opportunities and starve problems. They think preventively. They have genuine Quadrant I crises and emergencies that require their immediate attention, but the number is comparatively small. They keep P and PC in balance by focusing on the important, but not the urgent, high-leverage capacity-building activities of Quadrant II.
What one thing could you do in your personal and professional life that, if you did on a regular basis, would make a tremendous positive difference in your life? Quadrant II activities have that kind of impact. Our effectiveness takes the quantum leaps when we do them.
I believe that if you were to ask what lies in Quadrant II and cultivate the proactivity to go after it, you would find the same results. Your effectiveness would increase dramatically. Your crises and problems would shrink to manageable proportions because you would be thinking ahead, working on the roots, doing the preventive things that keep situations from developing into crises in the first place. In the time management jargon, this is called the Pareto Principle -- 80 percent of the results flow out of 20 percent of the activities.
The enemy of the "best" is often the "good."
Keep in mind that you are always saying "no" to something. If it isn't to the apparent, urgentthings in your life, it is probably to the more fundamental, highly important things. Even when theurgent is good, the good can keep you from your best, keep you from your unique contributions, if you let it.
A Quadrant II organizer will need to meet six important criteria.Coherence: Coherence suggests that there is harmony, unity, and integrity between your visionand mission, your roles and goals, your priorities and plans, and your desires and discipline. In your planner, there should be a place for your personal mission statement so that you can constantly refer to it. There also needs to be a place for your roles and for both short- and long-term goals.
Balance: Your tool should help you to keep balance in your life, to identify your various roles and keep them right in front of you, so that you don't neglect important areas such as your health, your family, professional preparation, or personal development.
Quadrant II Focus:. You need a tool that encourages you, motivates you, actually helps you spend the time you need in Quadrant II, so that you're dealing with prevention rather than prioritizing crises. In my opinion, the best way to do this is to organize your life on a weekly basis. You can still adapt and prioritize on a daily basis, but the fundamental thrust is organizing the week.
A "People" Dimension: You also need a tool that deals with people, not just schedules. While you can think in terms of efficiency in dealing with time, a principle-centered person thinks in terms of effectiveness in dealing with people. There are times when principle-centered Quadrant II living requires the subordination of schedules to people. Your tool needs to reflect that value, to facilitate implementation rather than create guilt when a schedule is not followed.
Flexibility: Your planning tool should be your servant, never your master. Since it has to workfor you, it should be tailored to your style, your needs, your particular ways.
Portability: Your tool should also be portable, so that you can carry it with you most of the time.You may want to review your personal mission statement while riding the bus. You may want tomeasure the value of a new opportunity against something you already have planned. If yourorganizer is portable, you will keep it with you so that important data is always within reach.
Quadrant II organizing involves four key activities.
Identifying Roles: The first task is to write down your key roles.
Selecting Goals: The next step is to think of two or three important results you feel you shouldaccomplish in each role during the next seven days. These would be recorded as goals.
Scheduling: Now you look at the week ahead with your goals in mind and schedule time toachieve them. For example, if your goal is to produce the first draft of your personal missionstatement, you may want to set aside a two-hour block of time on Sunday to work on it. Sunday (or some other day of the week that is special to you, your faith, or your circumstances) is often the ideal time to plan your more personally uplifting activities, including weekly organizing. It's a good time to draw back, to see inspiration, to look at your life in the context of principles and values.
Daily Adapting: With Quadrant II weekly organizing, daily planning becomes more a function ofdaily adapting, or prioritizing activities and responding to unanticipated events, relationships, and experiences in a meaningful way.Taking a few minutes each morning to review your schedule can put you in touch with thevalue-based decisions you made as you organized the week as well as unanticipated factors that may have come up. As you overview the day, you can see that your roles and goals provide a natural prioritization that grows out of your innate sense of balance. It is a softer, more right-brain prioritization that ultimately comes out of your sense of personal mission.
Habit 1 says "You're the programmer" and Habit 2 says "Write the program," then Habit 3 says "Run the program," "Live the program."
Again, you simply can't think efficiency with people. You think effectiveness with people andefficiency with things. I've tried to be "efficient" with a disagreeing or disagreeable person and itsimply doesn't work. I've tried to give 10 minutes of "quality time" to a child or an employee to solve a problem, only to discover such "efficiency" creates new problems and seldom resolves the deepest concern.
Remember, frustration is a function of our expectations, and our expectations are often a reflection of the social mirror rather than our own values and priorities.
We accomplish all that we do through delegation -- either to time or to other people. If wedelegate to time, we think efficiency. If we delegate to other people, we think effectiveness.Many people refuse to delegate to other people because they feel it takes too much time and effort and they could do the job better themselves. But effectively delegating to others is perhaps the single most powerful high-leverage activity there is.
Management is essentially moving the fulcrum over, and the key to effective management isdelegation.
Stewardship delegation is focused on results instead of methods. It gives people a choice of method and makes them responsible for results. It takes more time in the beginning, but it's time well invested. You can move the fulcrum over, you can increase your leverage, through stewardship delegation.Stewardship delegation involves clear, up-front mutual understanding and commitment regarding expectations in five areas.Desired Results: Create a clear, mutual understanding of what needs to be accomplished, focusing on what, not how; results, not methods. Spend time. Be patient. Visualize the desired result. Have the person see it, describe it, make out a quality statement of what the results will look like, and by when they will be accomplished.Guidelines: Identify the parameters within which the individual should operate. These should beas few as possible to avoid methods delegation, but should include any formidable restrictions. You won't want a person to think he had considerable latitude as long as he accomplished the objectives, only to violate some long-standing traditional practice or value. That kills initiative and sends people back to the gofer's creed: "Just tell me what you want me to do, and I'll do it."If you know the failure paths of the job, identify them. Be honest and open -- tell a person wherethe quicksand is and where the wild animals are. You don't want to have to reinvent the wheel every day. Let people learn from your mistakes or the mistakes of others. Point out the potential failure paths, what not to do, but don't tell them what to do. Keep the responsibility for results with them -- to do whatever is necessary within the guidelines.Resources: Identify the human, financial, technical, or organizational resources the person candraw on to accomplish the desired results.Accountability: Set up the standards of performance that will be used in evaluating the results and the specific times when reporting and evaluation will take place.Consequences: Specify what will happen, both good and bad, as a result of the evaluation. Thiscould include such things as financial rewards, psychic rewards, different job assignments, and natural consequences tied into the overall mission of an organization.