GYM GYM GYM

Need to get back to gym tomorrow and also my instalments for gym membership. Just ate so much. Well I also emailed a few newspapers as well as channel 7 & channel 9. I don't know if they're interested in my story but there's nothing I've got to loose in trying. So yeah, if God wants something for me, it will happen.

I'm also glad to see that others do realise how close I am with my God. And what I've learnt is that revelation means "to lift the veil". I was simply made aware of what WILL happen in the future. I don't create it because it has been there all that time. Opening the visions up to me would mean that God wants me to pursue the passion that I have to make what I see a reality. I know what I saw, what God told me is all true and WILL happen. It's only a matter of time. The fame and stuff will come, but for now I just have to be obedient and trust in Jesus. I also need to work hard and stay persistent with everything that I put my energy towards. I know God made known to me the fact that I WILL get that body that I want, that state of health that I've been longing for. I just have to work at it. I will come, but how fast it comes depends on how my progress is and how much I'm willing to sacrifice my old way to then adopt a new way of living. I think I will start from tomorrow. I know I'm a type who gets bored easily and can't stick with one thing for long, but if there's a great reason and passion behind that, I will never loose sight of what I want to achieve, namely: my relationship with God, and my passion for hair as well as my love for mum and my sister.

I need to be more like with my health. But I also need to understand that my goal and focus isn't on the earthly body but the eternal soul. I need to nourish it. And even though God will give me a new body once I enter His Kingdom, and even though how you look don't totally matter, but what eating healthily will affect both the way I FEEL and the way I LOOK. It's like hitting the bird with 2 stones. I will be at my peak state of health to carry out God's good work, His calling for me. At the same time, because I'm obedient, He will bless me with the body that I've desired. It's not an extra thing, it just comes along with the benefits of adopting an "eating living food" lifestyle.

I know that desired body will come, but I want it to come soon. And that means I should start NOW. Even if it's at night, I should not risk it by saying, I will do it from tomorrow and "pig" out tonight as much as I can. I will start from now and I mean it. I know it will be hard along the way but as long as I look at the long term result and "what is to come" then I think it's all sorted. Things will be okay with a few sacrifices.

I want to go Gym tomorrow. I want to eat living food as much as I can. I know my body feels HORRIBLE after I eat a big meal of cooked food, like right now. But it's over and I shouldn't look back feeling guilty but use that as an encouragement to face a new day. I want to put God first in everything I do because I know if I do that, His blessings will inevitably come. I want to make sure the first thing I do tomorrow is spending time with God, NOT eating!

Thank you Jesus for your amazing love. Thank you for the success that is to come. Thank you that you've chose me out of all people to bring glory to the heavenly kingdom. I feel privilege to have you as my Saviour, my Father. No one else is like you and I'm grateful that you are with me every second of every day for the rest of my life, even after this life, I will still be with you. I thank you for the amazing body I will have, the wonderful house we will be living in, the awesome opportunities to appear on the TV screens and ultimately bring people to Christ. I know Hairdressing isn't the main thing I've put here to do. You've placed that passion in me to eventually connect myself with powerful people through diligence and hard work. After that, I will be uniting with the Body of Christ to bring Glory to your name! I'm so thrilled and excited to be used by you! I'm so happy that you've chose me!! I'm so thankful! Thank you that I can be a servant and a great friend. Thank you that you are always welcoming me back into your arms even after my sinfulness, incompetencies and inadequacy. I love you Jesus. Forever and ever.

INSTYLE MAG

LOL

The first step hahah

this is so funny seriously

out of no where

and now, my work is published in "INSTYLE" magazine

My vision board is becoming a reality.

Thank you Jesus, this is just the beginning.

Beginning of a great blessing and a great calling.

xx

Brown Rice

Well I've been feeling really depressed lately. It's been a while since I feel this way. I just feel like this when I'm coming home. I don't know why, I just do.

Well don't know what else to say really. Just eating some brown rice and that makes me happy. I think my favourite food is fruits, vegetables and brown rice. I eat so much when I come home. Like just before I had 4 slices of toasts and a few choc chip cookies. That doesn't seem like a lot but it is in fact VERY MUCH considering how much I eat throughout the day. I have juice in the morning at around 9am and a salad at 1pm then come home at 7:30pm. I don't feel that hungry when I'm home. A fruit would satisfy me but it's because I see 'them' so I eat them.

Well got to get back on track somehow. People are raging about the summer and gym on facebook. It makes me think about myself. Well I will get back on track. Just need sometime. Christina also called. I'm not sure if I will take up the job offer. Got to hear from God.

I feel like God is telling me to read back to the "fasting" book and start my fast with prayers. But I'm not too sure.... I don't know....

Quotes about God

99% of the time we can find God's will for our specific situation directly in scripture. But since we desire our own will so much, we deceive ourselves and say 'God's will is so hard to know, and scripture is so hard to understand.' Our problem is not understanding God's word, our problem is obeying it.

What was Jesus' main goal while He was on earth? To be crucified? No! It was to do the will of His Father. And that must be our goal also.

Give me the love that leads the way, the faith that nothing can dismay. The hope no disappointments tire, the passion that will burn like fire. Let me not sink to be a clod: make me Thy fuel, Flame of God.

The closest in this life you can get to what Heaven will be like is in prayer.

The reason why many fail in battle is because they wait until the hour of battle. The reason why others succeed is because they have gained their victory on their knees long before the battle came...Anticipate your battles; fight them on your knees before temptation comes, and you will always have victory.

If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world.

:(

I don't know what to say.

I am speechless.

I need restoration.

I need the presence of God.

MFG:

You can not fix the past, but you can make a new future




I'm so sick of feeling sick and tired.

I'm so sick of my life RIGHT now. I love it when I make people feel beautiful, when I'm cutting and styling hair, but as soon as I'm almost home, I feel dead! Literally. I don't know what it is. I don't know if it's me or if it's the problem I'm having. I just want to get my diet on track. Get my fitness back on track. I do everything so proper and well OUTSIDE of home, but as soon as I come home, I'm like a different "old" person. I hate it.

I just want to get away. Flight or fight. I think I'd be the "flight" situation right now. I know you have to be brave and "face" it, but I'd rather get away and enter into the presence of God.

I don't like how I look, how I feel. I look and feel sluggish. I'm not totally confident with myself. I just want to be a different person. This is not how God intended me to be. I know I'm worth so much more than what I'm treating myself right now. My body is the Lord's temple! GOD PLEASE GIVE ME THE WILL THE STRENGTH, THE ETERNAL PERSPECTIVE OF MY LIFE!!!! PLEASE HELP ME TO CHANGE! TO BE BETTER! TO BE GREATER THAN WHO I AM NOW!

I NEED YOU GOD. I NEED YOU. I NEED YOUUUUU

I can literally die right now.

I look like crap and feel like crap. I don't even recognise myself anymore. Will I even have the gut to stand on my feet tomorrow and go gym?

Sunday. A beautiful day.

Just thought I say that today is a wonderful day (:

I honestly don't know what happened but as soon as I woke up today, I felt so good and positive. I was happy throughout the day. I also worked out as well which made it extra awesome. I think it was because last night I really cried out to God and prayed that He'd come and strengthen me. He did and preserved hope within me. I love Jesus so much. I'm so happy to be at church tonight. It was so amazing. Especially when Sophia came along and also brought her room-mate. Young Jun (I think that's how you spell it) just came from Korea a week ago and is here to do an internship. It's definitely not a coincidence that she happened to come live with Sophia. Young Jun knew about Hillsong even back in Korea and when she got here, she really wanted to come to see the church. I happened to ask Sophia to come along tonight and they both were already together so they ended up coming. I'm so happy and joyful to see him loving it. It makes me feel wonderffffullll knowing that they love the God that I love. What even more unbelievable is how Chi actually told me tonight that she "loves" church. That is SO AWESOME! I'm so glad to have brought her consecutively for the past few weeks. I'm going to continue doing so.

Well. I've made a decision that from now onwards, I want to do all that I can to put God first in everything I do. I'm planning to wake up at 6:30/6:45am tomorrow and spend half an hour with God before I get on with my day. I think it is critical and also very beneficial for me. I want to work Him around time, not choosing time to work around him. I want to place in first in all things, and I know He is my number ONE priority, so everyday, no matter what happens, I will make sure that He is included in my day, and during that "time period", I will do nothing but dwell myself in the presence of God.

Second thing I prioritise now is my HEALTH. It is very important for me and I know I may fall short at times, but I know for a fact that this time around, things will be TOTALLY different to the past attempts. I WILL achieve what I've set out to do! (: So in saying that, making sure that I always reach for optimal health by eating 70% or more "living" or "raw" food in my diet daily. My breakfast is always juice now and I ABSOLUTELY love it!!!! I can't live without fruits and vegetables because I function so well with it. Apart from eating right, I'd also need to put out sometime each day working out to get my heart pumping. I'm thinking of alternating every second day as interval cardio and the other days are strength training.

So right now, here are my top priorities are:

ONE and ONLY: 
God
: prayer and studying His words (Every morning): Church (Every week)


Then: God's temple = my body = health = Eating right + Exercising

How would I feel if I don't eat clean and exercise regularly?

• Physically: 

1, I will re-live the digestive problems AGAIN! Nooooooo....
2, Sluggish...Ew I don't want to feel fatty and not FIT!
3, My skin will turn dry, horrible!

4, My eyes will become more cloudy. So unhealthy!
5, My tongue will no longer be smooth and clear but will start having build-ups on the surface. Ew!

• Mentally: I will feel lethargic, tired, out of energy, and not motivated
• Emotionally: Robbed of energy, depressed, guilt, regret

I'M CARRYING A MESSAGE. I need to retain my body at its best condition in order to accomplish God's will in the best possible state: physically, emotionally and mentally.

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