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Sunday, June 20, 2010

Inspiration

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS GUY HERE!! @ IDRAWGIRLS 




I love art, I love anything that's beautifully created. And that's pretty much everything.


My aim is to get a SLR camera, maybe a Nikon D5000


And I really want to get into drawing, painting as well. Omg this is so amazing and cool.











DAY 3. In silence, You really hear God

So today is my third day of a Glorious life.

Jesus is so wonderful, powerful, so lovely and ahhh.....oh so wonderful. I'm currently listening to Avalon right now and the songs are ......just great and so joyous, peaceful, relaxing (:

Church was good today, but I really wanted to hear the guest speaker. He's on at the 5pm service so yeah I can't make it because I have so much things to get done and it's 5:12pm right now lol.

I had such an encounter with God today. I could really hear the Holy Spirit talking to me, calming me and telling me to really trust Jesus because He cares for me.

It felt like a really long time. I walked to the car park after church and then I got into the car thinking about where I'm going to get my photos printed. As I was sitting there, I realised how quite everything was. Like nothing mattered. All I felt was "silence" literally. It was like something I've never experienced. It was almost sacred in a way. Then I closed my eyes, then the Spirit start pouring His speech on me. I can't retell everything right now but afterward, I felt such a sense of peace. It's something so wonderful.

It's the 3rd day and I'm not even hungry. I honestly don't want to eat anything so I get quite annoyed when I see food around the house or when Mum asks me what I want to have so she can get it for me. I always tell her I ate already, and she's getting really worried because she thinks I don't eat properly or only ever eat junk food.

I'm not going to adopt my old thinking, of not wanting to waste food therefore I will break my fast. That's so stupid honestly. Besides, I shouldn't worry about that anyway since I'm doing this fast for a LONG time. It's a 21-day fast. I have many days left, 7 times as much as what I've been through. Then tomorrow will be 6 times as much, then 5 times as much, 4 times as much, 3 times as much, then I can't wait till Hillsong Conference.

I felt God telling me to tell Sveta to be careful so I texted her and I was right. There's so much going on with her. The devil is attacking her in dreams, in her thinking, in her health and I really pray that God's power will overtake the demon's spirit. Jesus is forever more powerful than any evil acts, no matter how great the devil's power is, He is greater still. The Devil is aggressive, but He is empty. He has no place to live, no place of residence. And He shall not reside in me nor will he take my precious friend's heart, Sveta's heart.

At the moment, I'm just preparing my portfolio for wednesday interview. I hope I get the job. I have confidence in the Lord. I will try my best for everything He wants me to do and then I put the decision in His hands, no matter what the outcome is, I will always be happy. I want to live in God's timing, not mine. He knows better than I do. He has an eternal perspective, yet mine is only temporal. I don't know what's going to happen in the future, but Jesus will always be all-knowing, of the past, present and the future. He will carry out an amazing plan for my life. He told me today that He has chosen me as His servant. I will impact nations and the world. I will bring my family and friends to Christ. He told me He was pleased with me fasting and will allow great things to happen. He also said that He has prepared a place for me in Heaven and that my name is in the Book of Life. He still wants me to keep reaching and seeking Him in all circumstances. The spirit convinced me that even though I do have much faith right now, my faith in the future will be thousands and millions time greater than my current faith. I will be so connected to God and His Kingdom that my belief now is only a dust compare to what's in store for me.

I'm so excited for the future, but the result will take time to manifest. I trust in God always and always and always. I know I don't have to worry about a thing. What ever He tells me to do, I will do it, because He says so.

Jesus is so great (:

I just came back from Haymarket. I didn't want to go tonight but Mai asked me to because Monic is leaving to Germany this wednesday. I thought I'd come to farewell her but Mai ended up having the time of her life. Me and Mon just sat there LOL. I didn't drink, dance, nothing. So many people asked me to drink but I stayed true to myself and did not drink at all. I don't like drinking anyway. It's not like I was trying to not get tempted from something I like to do. Drinking is not my thing, so I didn't have a hard time refusing. I think by now, everyone would've realised that I DON'T drink lol. It's funny how when I was sitting down and observing everything that was happening around me: girls dancing, guys trying to hit on chicks, alcohol, loud music, flirtatiousness ect, I just could not believe I was apart of THAT scene once upon a time. It's funny now that I've grown out of it, I finally understands how ridiculous those times were. Spending money on new dresses every week, taking the whole night to prepare for a night out, going clubbing and worrying about how you look in front of guys, dancing like there's no tomorrow, and accepting free drinks from guys because they're FREE and it showed that they were interested in us. How ridiculous.

Those times are over. I've grown out of it too soon, too quickly. In just over half a year. Which is LESS! Very very short amount of time. I'm no longer interested in the clubbing zone. I like to chill out with friends, have an easy night out, eat dinner together, something like that. I prefer to have quality times.

I'm just grateful that God had finally showed me a new view to my life. A new understanding to what I thought I knew. I love how God always surprises you with new things, perspective of life and wisdom. I love how no matter what we do, He will always use that opportunity to teach you a lesson, to allow you to at least gain some knowledge out of it. God is truly so amazing. I honestly don't understand people who refuse to believe that there isn't a God or there isn't a reason to life. So if they don't think people were born for a purpose, why do they try so hard to reasons themselves by explaining or asking the question "why?" in the first place, whether god related or not. If people were created for a will, that means that everything that happens on this earth is a legitimate plan working together for a good cause, a bright future for all human being, a way to know God and the path to everlasting life.