I eat SO much LOL

Well today is the 2nd day since I finished my fast and I've got to say that "I" eat "a lot"! I mean so much. The more I eat, the more I realised that you don't need food to keep you going, all you need is God. I've eaten so much these past 2 days that I can not even imagine myself not eating for 7 days LOL. If I had to list down everything I've consumed, I'd be so embarrassed hahaha. I'll just say ONE example. I ate a WHOLE Domino pizza BY MYSELF this afternoon LOL. Okay is that bad enough? And I don't usually eat pizza. I guess I was just craving for that nice crispy texture and yeahhhh. Oh well.

I just had my teeth cleaned as well and it hurts! Mum kept on telling me how it doesn't even hurt but it DID. I don't know why, maybe it was just me. But yeah I'm glad I got it cleaned because I feel cleaner now.

I keep wanting to eat really healthily but I can't stop consuming all the food that I crave. At least I'm not as bad as how I was. I mean, I can still control my appetite. My waiting for God's calling to fast again. I really want to experience that again. I'm hungry for God's words. I just want to go through another fast. I will definitely do it for my graduation, but I'm not sure if I should do it the day before or ON the day. I guess I will have to see.

I'm also fasting for the conference week. OMG I just remembered that the heart of the house offering is coming up! It is the week of my graduation. I really want to try out that 21 days fast you know. But I'm not sure if I can. I know I can if it is God's calling. Seriously, that's like 3 weeks. 3 times as much as what I've just been through. However, I think it is manageable and the outcome will be absolutely amazing!

I still haven't started on  my head piece, i still need to get the jeans for Arno. I still need to think of what haircut to do on Jelina. What colour to do on her hair. I'm still unsure of many things but surprisingly I'm not panicking? Isn't that a bit weird? I trust in God that He will deliver me creativity. I trust that He will speak to me, speak to my hands and just let his creativity come alive, take its shape and form. I can't wait for everything to come together. It will be so great!

Okay God, please speak to me now. Tell me what you want me to do. I need wisdom!

'The' new day.

Today is the first day of my the new era, the beginning of something great as I finish my 7 days. My faith have grown so much these past 7 days. God have finally taught me a lesson about trusting in him and how when I dwell onto his name and seek first His Kingdom, the rest will be added onto my wish list. Even though there were several things that was not included in my agenda for prayer list, God gave it to me anyway. God have finally taken away my love for food. I was struggling with that so much, and now I'm a totally different person. When I look at pancake or gelato or any types of food that used to make me go "Hmmmmm....I WANT SOME", I would no longer care whether or not I will or won't have it. I just simply don't care. When I broke my fast. It was very funny actually. I really thought the taste of food would be so amazing in my mouth because I haven't had for so long, yet when I did have it, it wasn't even that great. Consuming all those chips and junk was just an added discomfort that I didn't need. Fruits the way to go. Real food, is THE way to go.

So now that I have accomplished my 7 days fast. I feel very renewed and strong. I'm waiting for God's calling to do another one. I don't know for how long but I'd love to aim for a 21 days. That would be very hard but if I feel as though God is telling me I should then I will do it.

One good news actually. Well not the only one, but one of it. I finally fit my denim short (: which I've been aiming for like a year now? LOL. I guess the side effect of weight loss caused that, but still, I have finally fit it and I'm wearing it right now! It feels so amazing for it not to be tight but just right (: I love how I look although I'd love to work out and be more toned (:

Well, that's it for now. I'm going to study the word of God. There are billions of things for me to do, but for some reasons I'm not stressing out. I know they will find their ways. I should just do what I love doing. Put myself in the presence of the Lord! Amen!

7/7 DAY fasting

o-m-g

I can still not believe I've made it this far. I can't believe that I have not eaten anything in 7 days. It's 4 hours and 8 minutes till I can break my fast which is at 12:00am. I still can not believe it. I'm a type who loves food, and getting me to stay on track without junk food is already hard, let a lone going without food ALL TOGETHER.
I praise God for His amazing blessing. I'm so glad He had lead me to do this. This was really important to build my faith to another level.

I love you Jesus. Okay so right now I'm feeling really restless, I've had probably 1/2 liter of water and then I decided that I will consume no food or water until 12:00am. I'm not doing it to torture myself, I just want to remind myself that I don't need water or food to make me feel better, to fill me up. All I need is my God and everything will be fine. Every time I get that hunger and thirst attack, I think about my God and how great He is to me. How He helped me through these 7 days.

I thank Him that His words were really getting into my heart. I can really feel Him reinforcing the message of the power of 2, unlimited potential and being faithful when trouble comes.

I thank Him also for bringing Diego and Natalia to Hillsong today. I'm so glad they've enjoyed it. It was my pleasure to tell them about church and it did not matter to me that I spent my last amount of money on the Spanish Album and food for them. I love to give. I love to bring happiness into people's lives.

Okay, right now I'm really really hungry. I'm thinking what I will get once 12:00am comes. I haven't eaten for 7 days, so I really wonder what I will become my first meal in a week LOL.

Tomorrow is a another shoot. I pray that God will give me inspiration to create something different, unique and amazing. None like any other. I believe in Him. I believe in his power and I know He was telling me not be anxious and just wait for His creativity to come alive through my hand. I don't  have to do anything other than following my instincts and what the spirit says.

It's been a tough, but an AMAZING week. I really felt closer to God. I really felt sensitive to His presence. Thank you Jesus.