I seriously hate how I look.
I hate how I feel.
And maybe cutting my hair short is the symptom of my decrease self confidence.
I honestly hate how things are at the moment
I find it hard to think of anything good and that's a really bad thing.
I'm so tired and drained off energy.
I need a retreat. I need God's power. I need to get away to where the presence of God is because it is there that I will renew my spirit and myself.
I hate how I look so bad. I know I should love myself but this isn't how God intended for me to look like. I know that.
I'm sick of feeling sick and tired.
The blocked nose is annoying. Vardering progress isn't too great :(
It makes me really sad and I really don't know how God would use this in His plan.
I just want to cry. My eyes are giving up on me. They need sleep. They need rest. My mind and spirit feels robbed.
I know all the right thing, but is finding it hard to believe it or convince myself so.
i don't want to think too much about tomorrow but I just can't help feeling sad and despair about how I am going with all the assessments.
God chose me to do this. God hand picked me and gave me this opportunity....so that in failure I may become something??? I don't know. I really don't know. But all I know is that His ways are not my ways.
God Im so in need of you. I HONESTLY REALLY WANT YOU RIGHT NOW!!!
HOW LONG LEFT. HOW LONG??
my partner
my job
my career
my TESTS. when will i passsss??????????????????????????
my heart is in so much pain
my BODY is screaming out for health!!!!!!!!
and WHY IS IT that I eat healthy all day and as soon as I come home, I eat like a pig!!!!
I hate how I look. I hate how I can't even stick to achieving my goals. I don't even remember ANY TIME that I have actually done what I've set out to do in regards to health and fitness.
I hate my broad shoulder and chubby arms. My rounded face look fat and swollen. I'm sick of this hair. I want to chop it all off. I want a vacation, a holiday.
I want to get that hype and spirit back again so I can start to read some more.
And why did you make me with no eyelashes God? I hate how my eyes are!!!! :(
When will I love myself, truly, truly truly......
Why am I full of imperfections....
